back to this dead and emo blog again. but this entry wont be oh so sad and crappy. soo it's gonna be boring. ha. =.=''

photography is really hard but also fun. we're now already in our final project. and fortunately enough, both my ideas are accepted by our unreasonable lecturer. phew... im doing on... ok... nevermind. i shall put post it on my blog when i finished with it. thats if its nice. haha..

i have some many things i wanna say... but im just so tired of saying it already. so... maybe next time.

it took so long for my aging com to recover that i've realized that nobody cares about it anymore, even me. today i went cycling at ecp with my classmates. it's actually the first time we really hang out tgt and i must say that its actually kinda fun. thing is i'm also kinda upset because i use to hang out with the animals at ecp but now we're just too busy to meet up. dont know why but today at ecp i just have so many things running through my mind. not only the friends i use to be close with but also some other thoughts thats just sad.

now i look at my life and the one i had before. i use to be really sad and pessimistic but im now abit more optimistic. just that..it's like im losing myself. im trying so hard to get myself busy so that i wont think of all the serenity and loneliness. my life is empty. crap.

haha. here i go again. maybe this is just a once in a while kinda feeling. going back and forth over and over again. geee. i think i shld just concentrate on my projects and stop emo-ing.

i gaze at the mesmerizing sunfall
the orange rays pouring through the bits of sparkling dust
its magical, its beautiful
as the sun cuts into the horizon
the dark shadows fill the land
if only that will stay for ever.

dead...for now.

haha. a day wasted at tp. both classes ended damn early. oh ya, theres this band playing in our sch today. its suppose to be damn nice and all but it turn out to be really noisy. the reason is because the equaliser or what ever u call the guy balancing the sound, did a really bad job, we can hardly hear the girl sing. as a result, competing with the guitar and drums, she tried singing louder but ended going off key. and its so damn bloody stupid of the ppl who set up the place.they're like playing to the wall while all of us look down from the building. but i still think tht its cool. haha. dion's suppose to be playing the base but he didnt because we had classes. well, everything ended early as i said, so he's like kinda dissapointed.

so after alfie,the lecturer, approved my idea, me and dion went ps to meet up with the drumer and guitarists.all of us was there except for one, the drummer, cause he... just broke with his gf? hahahaha, im damn evil but they told me that guy was watching movie with her gf before meeting us, the next thing you know is that she's no longer his girlfriend. sad.

so we discuss abt the songs we can play and the ones suitable for my voice. not really a serious discussion but we just talk alil abt what we can play,jamming. songs tht they chose at first were, stars-switchfoot, falls on me-fuel and set me free-velvet revolver. stars's like really boring to me actually but falls on me's ok. set me free... haha. screaming song. definately no i told the drummer. BUT just few minutes ago, i tried singing it with another voice and i can actually hit the high keys. its really a different interpretion though. but maybe ill just let them stick with set me free. whatever it is. i just cant wait to try out jamming with the band.

FINALLY... im back. alright. erm. actually this might sound stupid but nothing really happened since i last blogged. haha. erm.but im gonna be quite busy in the future. such as getting back to basketball and oh, im gonna learn how to play a guitar soon, not really tht soon , haha, during nov.right! and dion invited me in his band as the vocalist. though im not sure if things will turn out right but im sure it'll be fun. jamming time!

went out with tuna yesterday, for the first time in 4 years ? ahahhaha. we were suppose to watch diehard but the timeslots seemed to be either sold out or selling fast. so we went lido and it was the same over there. in the end we just settled at swensens for dinner. haha. we had a hard time finishing our fish n chip. but i just love the ambiance there. DARK and relaxing. hahahaha. after eating its still kinda early. tuna asked me if we shld still catch a movie or join her friends at zouk. in the end we just took another try at cathay. haha. fortunately we didnt waste our trip there. got ourselves a 1240 ticket for diehard 4.0. it started before we even got in. we were not late though, wierd. erm, movies okay, reminds me of transformer, alot of explosion and destruction on the streets.oh, n maggie q died horribly. haha. it was even better than i thought, hanging arnd with her i mean, we didnt stop talking or hang even a bit. haha. but shes alil upset abt her height after seeing me. dont worry la. u MIGHT still grow up. '' shan yi de huang yan'' =)

went zouk with weewee, jess, and jul. ALOT of ppl. my friend's right. gg there on wed night is crazy. we were squeezing ppl most of the time. so dancing is already out of the question. erm, actually we did dance alil. lol. at one corner. hahah. really wierd. actually, if we have the money to buy more drinks or maybe with less ppl arnd, this could have turn out to be alot more better. but i'd say like every other outing. i enjoyed myself. being out there rather than rotting at home is just great. haha. but clubbing... well, its just wierd tht im the only guy. kinda stress in some way. alright. jess called me this afternoon abt our next big meeting. haha. sounds really cool. but er, not easily done.

perphaps things just wont happen until u start thinkin abt it.

im super duper broke. i knew tht from the very moment i spend money like im some rich guy yesterday. hhaa. me and jing yuan spent the whole damn day at orchard. i mean it. haha. from 12.30pm to 1am. this is the first time ive almost hit $200 in just one day. aside from buying the ps3. we've done everything we can find at orchard. at least almost all of them. we sang at kbox, watched movie at cine, ate at swensens and shopped like crazy ppl. haha. there were alot of ppl shopping too, maybe its because yesterday was also the last day before the gst increases. haha, i told jingyuan tht maybe after this we'll have to eat cup noodles for a month. lol. haha, although i will never ever have the courage to check the amount i have in my bank until i get my pay, i kinda enjoyed the day with her. but this is like a once in a lifetime thing.LOL. its a very very VERY exhausting and expensive outing. i cant afford it.

theres something money cant buy, like a friend who's willing to spend a day with u.
for everything else, theres mastercard.

july's comming. yay..... erm. yay for what. oh ya. yay for having the slackiest module for this mth. not tht its nt impnt but compared to comdi and drawing essen last month, wow, its really alot better. now we hv time to do what we want to do. oh ya, its creative story telling anyway. all u have to do is to create a story of ur own. and our lecturer, alfie, is really a nice guy, i tot he was gg to be damn strict at first but he isint, in fact he's funny and entertaining. so hopefully this will be a better month..

ok, today i went out with jul, jess and monkey. finally all of us made it. but its like just some normal meet ups. they came my hs n watched this very disgusting movie called the descent. haha, luckily they didnt find it boring i think. then we went to pw to eat. i bought alot of food, haha. a american sasuage, crab meat jap salad, one burger king meal and sundae pie. gosh. damn full. like always, i enjoyed slacking arnd. talking trash and stuff. argh. n tht ass weewee ignored all my byes just now. damn. argh. till next time.

that day, i went comics con and bought a ps3 protector which cost me 18.90. but after i read the intructions behind, i found out that its actually a piece of shit, as in, they seperated the protector into to sheets, on covering the top part of the ps3 and the other the bottom, leaving the ps3 logo uncovered. omg, so theres a gap in between, what kindaof protector is tht? so i tot, im never gonna use this shit, and i rushed back to the store just after 30mins i bought it n demanded for an exchange, i know, its my fault not to have checked the product throughly but im not just gonna waste $19 on nothing. it could have been a peaceful exchanging process but unfortunately, they're from china. yes, all of them. they were just so not please with me when i ask for the exchange. for tht very moment, im about to reach the state of discrimination. especially when they start talking to me in eng. i could have just walk away but this time i didnt. lol. i just stayed there like a unreasonable customer for the first time of my life. but they were just so stubborn. its only until when i said, ''even for a ps3 game''. fk, money faces. in the end, i wasted not 18.90, but 99. well, at least, its something tht ill be hanging on for months. geee. im like some auntie complaining here. nvm nvm.since im getting my pay soon. ARGH. u have to start saving some money jwn!!!! seriously. alright. i better go play my 99 game, feel so not right to even leave it untouched for 5mins. $$$$$$$$$

its only after donkey's msg on the board tht i realised tht i havent updated any entry regarding juleen's bday. alrighty. so here it is, althought its pretty late. im just gonna make this a short one. since everyone's blog have abt the same entry. LOL. met up with xiong and jul at vivo first. its just wierd being early. the rest came alil bit later after they got the present for blacky. haha, hamster, thts right, two of them. geee. its so stupid typing all these out when u can read it from hui's and jess's blog 'to know more, click on their blog'.LOL. see i so good, promote ur blogs leh. ok, ill just say tht it was a casual meet up, it might be bored to the others but i really enjoyed slacking arnd. its part of my life =..=''.. most significantly, it is the time being with ur friends, so whether if its just a dinner, or even doing nothing like just talking randomly to each other, its still something we shld treasure. i dont wanna end up everyone having second thoughts of whether we shld meet up or what. OK? lol. geee. i sound too serious here already. aiya , actually i have nth to type abt also. so most of these are crap. WAHHAHAHA. thankew for reading this meaningful but crappy entry. till next time =)

omg, jwn u have to control urself, u're spending money like flowing water. haha. yesterday, me and the animals including bao and xw anyway, haha, went to orchard. i have to go fareast first so i can alter my jeans. damn, ill have to go there all by myself later to collect it. so damn sian la. sigh. anyway, after we all finally gathered tgt. we ate at swensens. geee. alot of money but it was quite worth it. then we walk back to cineleisure to take some retarded $10!!!! neoprint. omg. haha. waste of money. cause the photos aint tht nice and the pictures were super small. but nvm la. we seldom take neoprints. by then, it was already 10pm, almost all the shops were closed so jess suggested a place where we can rest and talk, which was also where jordon brought jess to for the first time they met. haha. tht place is kinda special in some way. theres lights shining up the reflective ceiling like lil stars. its a great place to chill out but just a lil hot there. so after talking..n ofcourse gossiping, we finally left tht place at abt 1130 i think. haha. alrighty, i actually enjoyed the evening with them. nothing like gg out with the animals. too bad one's missing, haha. hopefully we can meet as a grp soon. alright. i think thts abt it. sayonaraaaaaaaaaaaa. till next time.

alrighty, another fast update. last thursday, i went out weeeweee. i know, its already sat. but its just wierd not talking abt it. i mean its been so long since we've gone out tgt. so.. we went to vivo. n i know we have to catch a movie. ok... i want to. haha. too bad theres so lil movie we can choose from, so in the end we watched zodiac. ahaha. its suppose to be boring la. somehow we got thru by laughing at stupid scence. we tot tht the movie's never gonna end actually, it seems to take forever to end. LOL. 3hrs. gosh. haha. we shop alil too, because of the bloody zodiac, time was not enuff for us to do anything else at vivo already. SO! we ended up at my house, showed my ps3 to weewee, and gave my ps2 to her. haha. how ironic. yea. thts abt it. actually i just dont want weewee to be bored throughout the whole thing la, i know i can be very boring when it comes to one on one outing. but she said in her blog tht - it was not abit boring - im glad she wrote tht in her blog. so i wont have to worry abt ASKING her out if again if nobody can make it like this time.. HAHAHA. just jk la. lol. alright, next time i better see u ppl. donkey- blacky.

haha. i know. this is, for the first time, the fastest update ever. well, i have no intention to make an entry this fast until i've seen this movie i downloaded on net. i have this urge to tell so many ppl abt it unfortunately nobody's online right now so here i am. hahah. OK. im sure u have heard of this movie called hostel. if not. u shld go check it out on net. its not showing in sg though. ull have to download it. ive seen hostel, the first one, n it left me a very deep impression. not because of its gore, bloodshed and inhuman torture only but also the captivating story. ive just finished watching the second one, oh my .. god.. its definately more gross....alot. really. luckily for me, the image quality isint tht good, and even for tht, i was still put into shock. imagine watching it in dvd or high def quality. i think ill be vomiting like weewee already. WAHAHAHA. well, the first one has more torture scence compared to the second one, but the content.. for the second sure is alot more disgusting. the reason, haha, simply has to be the change of sex for victims. first one was guys, now, girls ofcourse. its just sick la. anyway, the story actually links from the first to the second. the director wont be doing a trilogy though. what a shame. alright, i wont go into details as this blogs rated m18. WAAHAHHAH. lame. n i wont want to be a spoiler. if u want to watch it, its available on some of the BT sites, or u can borrow the cd tht ive burned from me, either way, dont miss this movie. heart failure ppl or little girls not encouraged.

omg, its been so long since i've made an entry and i really feel bad for abandoning you my poor lil blog. so.. let me see. actually nth much occured when im away. you know, i just got the ps3, what else would i be doing. right. oh ya. actually, there was suppose to be a camp. fk, n because of tht, i have to take offs from work. n guess what? they changed the camp to another day. WTF. too bad, im nt gg already, even if i want to, i simply cant. ive already made a mess in the schedule once so i really dont want my current supervisor to go through all the unnesessary work again. sigh, but one of the camp activity is really tempting. PAINT BALL. ARGH. nvm.. theres another replacement camp for those who cant attend this. but no paint ball anymore. so sad. therefore..... im left at home for four days with nth to do. well, ill be alil optimistic. because of the changes, i can rest and rot with my ps3, n hui will have the chance to get the ps2 from me. talking abt wee wee, shes sick. nono. i mean really sick. haha. hope u'll get better soon monkey. okok. seeee. i have NTH to do... i guess ill go back to my button smashing game again. till next time..

just got my ps3. and its pretty much the same. im happy abt it. yet not really excited. its kinda ironic. cause.. when i first got my psone, i was darn into it. then come ps2, woah. it was all but enjoyment. but for ps3 its just a lil flat. for all of these that made it happened, that ive realised now, isint actually the next gen consoles.. but that somebody, anybody, around, whether if the persons just looking at u or playing with u, it just feels good.. now thts diff.. william actually came back three days ago, the timming was good because i just got my ps3, although its just one pathetic game cause i didnt have enuff money to buy a few more, it was still great. pure enjoyment, and the funny part is, its a single player game. we just took turns, cursing at each other when the car crashed like a million times. sigh. now he's gone, again? haha. but im not really sad either, i mean, im just trying to make a point here. and it also struck me that hui once said that why do i need a console, i could have a better use of that money, maybe im just so bored and had nothing better else to do but to go right home everyday and lock myself up in the room, pressing the controller like some freak for hours... well, shes right~ most of it. i love consoles, but the reason i buy it is simple, i dont have any more activities to keep myself busy. i just have to find one , myself, alone, and try to always be optimistic by keeping myself with things to do. thats my kinda life, still. ps3 can be fun, but it cant talk to me, make me feel better when im sad or laugh at my jokes.. im just upset.. of the limitations of connections i have. in the end, it always hit me right back, like a cycle, the feeling of loneliness..

laughters, screams and cheers filled the air
so glad to be one of them
soon it fades
everyone spread to their close ones
each hooked on to one another
i was left behind
im not alone, how can i be?
we just laughed and cheered
but why?
deep down i hear the cries of pain..

FINALLY i have time to update. it really.. REALLY has been a tiring week for me. frankly speaking i have never ever done so much work in my life before. i stayed up to 2am to do my projects almost everyday. unbelievable man. wow.however, i still tried to have some time set aside for leisure. Met up with monkey and blacky last friday. it was a simple outing. we just had dinner at one of the res at ms. haha. juleen, as usual, made us laugh like hell. what will we do without u hur? sometimes ure even funnier than clowns. geeeee. im mean. WA HA HA. ok. i need to go have my dinner already. shall be back with more ''intresting'' stories of my life. stay tune~

alright, surprising hur? i mean, i just wrote in a entry yesterday n here i am writing another one. usually takes more than 2 days to see another one. okay. lets start of with the class at boat quek. haha. its really embarassing actually, i made the whole class wait 30mins for me. why wait for me? cause im something like a repesentitive for the class n IM LATE. so much for responsibility, geee. i dont even want to be in this position, im simply unlucky. damn, they actually prank call me when im on the way there, someone trying to sound like one angry teacher over the phone, get the idea? yea, i fell for it. good job. lol. and then we walk to boat quek as a grp, met up with mdm tia, the person incharge, great and cheerful lecturer infact, got some tips and started drawing? haha. i seriously hate drawing landscapes la. wah piang. I HATE DRAWING LINES. nvm. after tht, some of us went off and had lunch together. and i ended up in monkeys house, really missed her house alot, haha, if u're reading this, stop giggling. ok, u wont. but at least, u know. she tought me some skills of exploiting the function of photoshop and we had a few of stupid games. i cant stay there for long cause i have a movie to catch with kel and all, SPIDERMAN 3.

ok. maybe i had expected too much, u know? trailers always do tht. ok, cause im a huge fan of spidey, this 3rd installation was really a twist, a bad one. the story has too many characters in it, everything seems to be so jumpy, like the pace of the movie speeds up alil here and there. the logistical sense isint there. well, simply the plot and the script has a huge imperfection, and it could be much better if they'd just follow the origin of the comic books. well, i have no say in this cause im just one of the million audience. the good part is, haha, the visual effects pretty much satisfied what i was looking foward to. the fake jumps to the air, the unpropotional gravity swinging and overly strained glossiness is now erased. good job to the visual team. hhaa. the action , like many of the fight scences were extreamly incredible. but the design of the villians and spiderman still a problem. guess they're just too lazy to redesign the black costume so they decided to just pour it over with black ink. overall rating, 4 out of 5. might be a 3&1/2 if im not into spiderman. i hope for a better script on the 4th one '' if there is'' thts all for today. GTG SLEEP. till next time.

alright. finally another entry from me, it was a extremly busy week for me, yea, first week at sch too. everything seems to be ... fine... alil bit toooo fine. i hope i wont end up calling it bored. after a few days at sch, i found out how tiring this could be. seriously, u have task, research and major projects to stress on, every single day. from '' oh so bored. have nth else to do'' holidays to ''holyshit,all im enjoying pretty much now is sleeping'' sch life. okay. but at least im studying something tht i'd be intrested in..soon.. not now. geee. lectures now have NTH to do with moving image. maybe in some ways but sigh, its gonna be tough for the first yr. i hope i can get thru it somehow. currently , im working on a project called ''design icons/iconic designs'' , ive choosen spiderman and starbucks. haha. wierd hur? but anyhow, we need to do this collage of the icons we've choosen n geee, its darn difficult. putting pictures of different kind into one, messy but artilistic. shit. nvm, im gonna gather all the skills i can find n do the best i can. monkey's gonna teach me some basics of photoshop, so ill have to thank her for this. hopefully, ill get a pass, nooo, get myself at least a satisfying grade.

monkey's blog has this movie rating system gg on. haha. therefore,... u know, following the footsteps of the oh mighty short one. ok,seriously, i have this movie i wanna share and talk abt. its not a new movie cause i'd watched it from a dvd. its actually called '' blood diamond '' i know i know, it must be a stupid action kinda movie, im sure many of u guys seen the poster, so the impression is there, LAME, but in fact, in the opposite way , since ive seen it, ITS ... great. absolutely, WITHOUT any exception , one of the best movie ive seen. its not just a dumb frictional movie, its actually still happening out there,FACT. ppl suffering because of some stupid diamond. dont get it wrong, its nt a documentary like an incovenient truth. ill say , maybe girls will watch it because of leonardo dicprio and guys'd rather see some alien freak show, but this is one of the many important movies we must watch, haha. im like so into it.. but after u watch it, ull know how safe and lucky we are. ok,not gonna go on,just gonna say tht its ''spectacular, exciting and stunningly well made'' -david denby, THE NEW YORKER... so its worth watching. ill give it, 4 & 1/2 stars. =D GEEEE. monkey , seeee, im better at reviewing movies, u shld hire me for ur blog's future in the movie segment. lol.

OK. I SHLD BE SLEEPING. still have to go boat quey tmr ..... to draw? shit. ill see ya again, dear blog.

thanks to hui, heres the new entry. hahahaha. what will this blog become without monkey~
soooooooo. what shld i start with? okok. last thursday.. i think? me, weewee, donkey n blacky went to ecp. we got ourselves something to eat, played at the arcade too, before hitting on the road on bikes. oh ya, tht burgerking area was super quiet, geee. not a single soul there. lol. so we cycled to bedok jetty as usual, stopped there to take some air. haha. this is where the fun part was. wahhaha. we played random games, one of it was so stupid we couldnt help it but laugh non stop. just imagine me trying to act like pikachu. haha. geee. alright. then we continued. nth much happened n we eventually have to turn back at some point so we could return the bikes on time. haha, all i know is jul and jess were always behind me and monkey , waaayyyyyy back, all the time. LOL. oh ya.poor donkey got a cut near her ankle. fortunately ,its nt tht serious. i pretty much enjoyed the day with the animals at ecp. eh? oh,im nt done yet, but its nt tht impt too, they came to my hs after cycling, watched this RIDICULARS movie , it really sux, so half way thru we changed it to another zombie flick. haha. alright. thts all.

next week, my sch finally starts. really excited abt it yet! friends... i need some close ones soon, if nt hw am i gonna survive for the next 3years. haha. n ya, watching spiderman3 , woooooooow, with kelly yong ping ming, use to be a very close friend of mine during the sec sch days. glad we could meet up again. how can we nt watch the 3rd one tgt ? come to think abt it, we actually saw the first two tgt, i think. so this must be like a trilogy. hahaha. n we might just get ps3 tgt. whahahah, all the 3's. okok. YES. i have to go, lotsa dvds to finish. till next time. =D