it's so retarded when I go back and read my emo emo entries. what the f is wrong with you man jiewen jake nam , grow up. haha. okay, so the start of a new block is overwhelmingly slacky. seriously. our first lesson of the module and the lec told us that we wont have sch for the next two days. WOW. cool. i feel lazy anyway. Actually no? i feel lazy when im being told to do something but when i'm not, i will do it. did another digi painting. this time without reference at all. well, am i glad that i could still DO it. geee. i regret not majoring in animation. oh well, i will excel in VIDEO. yea, thats the two core subject that i can choose from. anyway. im sleeping late almost all the time now. getting use to it. and erm. 

i guess life can still go on when you still have friends to laugh with =)~

alright. haha.. this is one of the few entries where i vent my .. sigh, bad bad mood. this is why i rather have a very busy busy life. Yes. I am left with a day for myself. where i have absolutely nothing to do. well, i can. but i feel lazy. So when i feel this way and that doesnt mean i feel like sleeping. i feel... like i am alone again. i just need someone, not just anyone, someone who wants to accompany me not just because i need one. i dont know what im saying anymore. i just hate this. i hate it when i start typing this here because i have no one to go to, i hate it when i make myself so sad but im not. i am just argh.. fuck it. im feeling better already. it does help.  alright. phuuuuuu. 

watched hancock on my mums birthday. funny eh? it isnt as bad as what the reviews said it was. In fact, my mum and I enjoyed it, every bit of it. Its not all boring and its kinda hilarious. Dont expect too much and watch it like any monday afternoon movies.

So...what else,  oh oh, before the movie, my mum queued up for this stupid "money not enough 2" tickets so she could get in the box of spinning money. guess what? she only managed to grab $4. what the hell, oh wells, she enjoyed it. what else can i say? haha, and ya, angie called me non stop early this morning. reason because shes just so worried and anxious to get her mac book pro. haha, so was i when i got mine, cant blame her, welcome to the family high cheek bones. 

ok, whats else is there to come? big huge ambitious long term plans in the future for me and my fellow production teams, hopefully we can do the impossible, it is singapore after all. haha, erm. and then theres sch shc shch sch sch, projects... oh boy, i seriously need social life. jess said tht we shld meet at least once a week, how sweet. haha, yea, we shld before i really turn into a geek which wee has already been calling me. alright, lets pray. LOL. god o mighty, make my life more interesting... you know what i mean, amen. dont get me wrong, im still a free thinker. lol. oh ya, before i go, finished one of my digital paintings, shall show u guys. till next time =)

Some international actress

oh god, i have neglected my LIFE. hahaha. dont worry monkey donkey barney lala poh twinkie winky & deepshit, ill meet u on fri. lol. *terms and conditions apply. JOKE. what has happened since i last updated?  nothing much. work work work. oh, currently working on a 3d face on my own. pretty tricky thing to understand. haha. 

okay, i have nothing to talk about already. haha, gotta go back to work. later~

Reason why i am so busy for the past few weeks shall be revealed! Work? obviously, what else can i be busy with. Anyways the works below are meant to be scary. I did the storyboard and animatics for this story but what i post here are mainly the mood boards and posters. All painted in photoshop by me =) I love photoshop laaaa~

The very first painted mood board.

She is actually looking at the ghost. Explains why now?

And.. oh? she's already dead. haha

Thanks to him. My friend added the text to make it look like its a movie poster. Cool hur~

I drew and painted this. not fake! lol.

Okay okay, basically thats about it for the project, for my own work. I did a digital painting on my mac's track pad on my previous drawing of jessica alba. HOT woman. hahaha. First attempt to really add colors to a sketch in photoshop. Not that bad actually. haha. Did a few different kind of painting. I know i know, i have too much time to spare. I actually have alot more things to do. Movies, dvds, games, friends, dvds, games, movies, projects, projects, mind mapping, conceptualizing, projects again, movies, dvds, sleep, conceptualizing again, story development, finish the first kour project, continue modeling 3d character and... yea. It revolves around these random things. TIME IS JUST NOT ENOUGH. Oh oh. okok, take a look at the JESSICA ALBA IN BIKINI PAINTED PICTURE =D !

Double click to see the whole shit in FULL resolution pls. =)

HAVE been really really ...really busy. so busy that i dont even know that its already the end of the month. work is killing me. dont get it wrong, i enjoy my work but i feel that i have very little time of my own. my poor ps3 is so covered with dust and ill never ever get to know new ppl. darn. i just dont have that much time anymore. guess what, im typing this in class, might not even have the time to update when i go back home, i probably get stuck in the workload again and neglect everything else.

it'll will be good if there is just that someone.

okay, i finally have the time and mood to update. well, lets see, lets talk abt fun, erm, not exactly fun but the part of my life where i relax with my friend. went out with jess and wee last week. just hung arnd orchard. talking cock. i had to go home early and they were complaning like bitches. hahaha. still, i went home. haha. recently, i met up with wee again. suposedly we're suppose to watch kunfu panda. but ended up not watching it because its sold out. not only for tht day but also for sat and sun. gawd. isit so hard to watch a retarded children's panda cartoon movie??? i dont care. NEXT WEEK I WILL WATCH IT !!!!

lets talk abt sch and work. erm, sch is definately not exicting but still i prepher sch than holiday. at least im occupied. haha. too occupied i must say. no time for GTA!!!!, dvds and other slacks. we've finally shot the jump scene at the carpark near pungoh? went there three times and so unfortunate for us to have all the threee times raining. the third time which was yesterday, we hecked. went ahead and shot it. after that we're soaked and dirty. hell, kind god, pls dont cry next time when we shoot. its a torture. 

haha.the team. kour

i dont wear ties, its for the shoot, dont mind wearing though. haha

the scary jump

the sleep over.

andrea, me and angie
fascinated with what the lenses can do and andrea.... nvm.
the extreme shot~~~~
too bad we didnt manage to capture this in the vid

The dangerous jump that didnt seem to be that high on the video. hahaha. i was wet all the way down anyways. tht explains why my hair looks shitly flat and i shouldnt havecut my hair. darn!

no point updating at the moment..

when weewee called me and told me that shes back. i cldnt believe that it has already been a week. wow. im so not having a holiday. read the previous entry. i really need to go out. *hint biatch* i know i know, i always say i wanna hang out but then back out the last min. what a bastard i can be sometimes. well, things just get into my way... at the last min most of the time. it seems to me that weewee is rotting badly at home after she came back from heaven of fluffy clouds and prince charming boy... or sometimes girl.. or sometimes... it. what? its thailand. this is their culture right. at least she came back as a girl, untouched and with my BELT. oright. she bought one thts identical to hers...okay. nvm.

yesterday, andrea, ben and dion stayed over at my place. watched movies until it hits 5am. and for the first time im actually not tired. haha, andrea says that my room wld be perfect with a.c. ohhh god... and i know that! its hell in my room. burning hot. u'll get all sticky and sweaty. i so want to get a.c for my room.... argh.... i wld go home everyday without my mum calling me back every hour on phone if i have one. ok, shall stop with the complaining.

while waiting to enter zouk...

still waiting...

i feel bad, always spoiling the shot. tsk

weewee's hot DJ, she claims

find me if you can~

look wht happened when we went off. lucky us.

finally, a smile with teeths

im so freaking busy. haha. ok. i know i kept mentioning it but i AM. hahaha. erm. i think i need a social life. i have to get to know new people. sigh, not an easy task. so. i got the ugly pictures of me clubbing with hui, jess and jul last sat. so ill shall talk alil abt tht slimy, sweaty and tight experience i had. haha. disgusting right? i guess u just have to get use to it if u wanna club. like i expected, we had to squeeze the hell out of us to... whatever there is to be done, walking... dancing... jumping.... talking.... yea. u have to get let close, like skin to skin to do all of tht. the worse was to get out from the dance floor. jul wasnt feeling well and she wanted to go to the toilet, so i brought her out from the floor. god damn. one step took like 3mins each. do the math. i wont say that it was bad. im not a clubbing type. seriously. haha. but still it was still fascinating looking at hui and jess dance, bounce, twitch erm.. yea, that kinda stuff non-stop and still enjoying it. amazing. wonder women. jul isnt abnormal afterall? LOL. actually come to think of it, it was tht bitchy wee who wanted me to go so badly... she owe me big time. she better come back with my thai made belt or else thats it. WAHHAHA. like im so important hur?

okay, im suppose to update the entry for last sat night. apparently charlie's angel didnt send me the pictures. so i wont update until i get the pictures. 

for now. im just gonna talk abt current affairs. IM FREAKING BUSY. its holiday but its worse than having sch. ok. as long as i'm having fun. have to do a jump shoot with the kour production. then i have to finish modeling one human head by the end of this holiday. what else. oh. story boarding with dion. script for sigg. what else, arh, cant remember, theres just something else. omg. so busy. oh well. but its cool. just hope crewsade and kour wont clash into each other. schedules tight as hell. I HAVE NO TIME TO PLAY GTA. talk abt getting a gf. pruuufff. cant get one with time anyway, no diff. =..='' 

okay. i have dragged way to long to update this entry. As a result i have forgotten most of what i wanted to type. erm... Oh. went out with weewee last sat, as usual. we were doing our assignments at ecp's starbucks. She takes forever to finish coloring her birds. Hopefully shes done with it already. We did not meet this week because ... well, lets just say we didnt plan it. what else did i do for the past few weeks. OH. right. IRONMAN. watched it with my coursemates. Its a kickass movie. not bad at all for a marvel movie. might even be one of the best. 

my posture is soooo retarded

inside the lift. we just had to take one inside...

ben and i's about to kick some ass.

can you believe it. a guy wrote a song for my bitchy buddy. a guy who doesnt even know who she is. weewee u lucky ass. i dont even have anyone to do anything for. she said ' you have to find your own happiness' well, finding happiness isint easy at all. dont even know where to start with. haha. happiness can you just appear out from somewhere and happinize me for once in my life. i'll deeply appreciate it. 

JUST met ng weewee last sat and sun. haha. we went to ecp's big splash to have our delicious dinner. okay, mine's only the brownie and icecream. what? im pretty broke okay, and that still cost me 8 bucks. ya. 8 freaking bucks even after i shared with her. but its really good im telling u. so after we went to one jetty, not the bedok one. haha. and started talking cock. haha. we so wanna get out of singapore and travel. but its just two of us? who wants to join the club? hahaha. shes thinking of cruising while i just wanna get out of this stupid island. nvm. so we went back to get my bicycle. then she suggested, why not ride her back since her house is so NEAR and shes so LIGHT. erm, ya, i perspired like crazy just sending the both of us back to my house. then i decided tht its time i get some air away from my mum, LOL, so i break out from my house, took all the needed accessory and headed to weewee's house to do our individual hw. how exciting is that hur. i shld leave early the next day but i woke up late. so i stayed all the way until 6.30 helping her out with the sch projects. wow. there goes my weekend. COOL HUR. 

sometimes i feel that of everyone, i am the odd one. not that im special, not that im of anything great. im just that odd one out. seems like i can never connect with people for a long period of time. they just leave. ill say that perhaps im already use to it yet ill be darn glad if things were to change. 

just had dinner with ng weewee, i have no idea but we're always laughing. like two retarded small kids hanging out. we had durian ice creams, which i have another 3 at home, shes always doing the ordering, damn it. but its ok, the ice cream was really good. everything was practically great WHEN i lost my fking book. NOT even considered my book, it belongs to the marineparade librarys. ARGH!!!! goddamn. i so dont wanna pay for the book, i have alot to buy for march. SO UNLUCKY, dont know if its that SOMEONE who brought me such luck. anyway, its JUST a book, i keep telling myself.. argh...

what shld i say, i shldnt be back until fri, nothing seems to go right for me i guess. i came back today and everything might seem alot worse if nobody bothers but a friend did, i mean at least somebody's there u know. so thanks to ng weewee, okay, it was not that bad, at least i bonded with some people during camp, so it was not totally at waste. oh well, im glad im back to rest to get my health back, theres no place like home, although i dont speak to my mum much when im back, i actually missed her. wahahha. so SWEET right, these words will only be seen here, never will it be from my mouth. ahahaha. cause that will be... grosss, to me. anyway, im back and i feel more lazy than ever, i just slept the whole day away, woke up then slack all the way too. its 11.16 right... sigh, my only regret not staying is the nightwalk. ARGH. nvm. i wldnt have even made it to this late if i were to have stayed. sch's reopeing and i cant wait to be back and get busy again. 

thanks for the reminder that i'm not alone, buddy. i guess i owe u one? haha.

The firestation

it was extremely HOT that day

Raj the firefighter, not.

The Crewsaders

was jamming an hour ago. haha, we managed to play one song which is cool. i decided to record it cause i thought we played it smoothly but i have this feeling its gonna sound bad in the record and yes i am right. ok. maybe its just me, i sounded like im screaming and my voice is just so off. oh well. nvm. practice is all we need. haha. and i forgotten to mention tht raj, dion, wendy, greg and i went to the firestation to do some research on our project. it was kinda worth it, got lotsa information. yea. ALRIGHT. thts all for today.

My fav picture =)

i have sinned again, i edited the pic so ill look less uglier. lol

try the chicken at cineleisure cafe, she said its good.

Global warming has begun, do your part now.

look at her head. LOL

photobooth doesnt last us very long

inside joke. 

im so TIRED, thanks to someone. haha. oh well, she had a bad day so how can just ignore right. lol. actually this was what happened, met hui on fri. seemed extremely pissed off for some reason, particular because of the other bad day and i was late when i met her. i just couldnt stop laughing to myself because, its just funny la. her face and her stares. can be really scary and annoying sometimes. LOL. anyway, i knew it wasnt really my fault tht shes in a bad mood, obviously, im like some punching bag to her to vent her anger on. bitch. lol. nvm. so everything was ok by the time we reached orchard. talk and talk and talk and her complaining about how borin her life is and how shes gonna save it, ruin it, thats what i think. lol. i dont know how the hell i spent so much money yesterday, i feel really bad because im not suppose to spend the money i have on fri, its for my bloody exlink top up. shit. now i have to save back the money. anyway, i think bad luck has fall upon hui. lol, ohwell, she asked for it.