I just realized how scarily long my neck is.... 

and tall i am. LOL

He pan... with no rides but a big dumb statue.

and a stupid huge durian

so all we could do is take loads of pictures. hahaha.

and more pictures...

and some more pictures

we actually climbed all the way up so we could see the scenery. quite nice actually.

You can already tell who are the guys and the girls in this picture without looking at the face.

So this CNY is probably the worst. On the first day of CNY, I stayed at home the whole bloody day and i watched like 7-8 movies. See, i cant even recall. I didn't visit anyone cause my mum wanted to work, can't blame her. At least on the second day i went out with wee, angie and ben. Hoping to seat the rides, hepan usually have. BUT, yup, nothing more than a few dumb statues and colorful lights. Well, it was actually still pretty fun. All the clicking and flashing. Although I didnt step out of the house, I still manage to get alil bit of money from my parents and some random people. but from the looks of it. 2009 really is a bad year. at least to start with.

now and then I will think about things that will drag me down like a swallowing quick sand. sometimes i dont even understand why I want to make myself sad. do people want to feel sad? well, at least i do and it sux. geee. but trust me, i use to be alot worse. no, i dont do stupid things that involves blood. 

I know its damn retarded to post really pessimistic sad horrible self insulting entries. what I am sad is if i were to disappear one day, will things be different for anyone? will people even care? Oh wells, i dont really care anymore and I got alot of work to do. so... i shall look forward to CNY. 

on fri, wee, jess, ben, ls and i went to hajilane for food. we didnt know what to do after that until ls suggested bowling. which we did at ecp. and i got the highest score, yay. haha.. so after that we went up and played arcade for awhile and then card games at my place. i got the make-a-rule card and i decided that in the game, forfeit applies for anyone who laughs with any kinda sound, so ure allowed to laugh but you cant make a sound in another words. pretty funny. weewee just... couldnt hold it at first. ben thought that i made the game emo. oh wells. it was pretty fun and all. now, we're just have to worry abt what we can do next week. so little things to do sometimes. 

sometimes i question myself, am i born to feel pessimistic all the time. this is so far the happiest time of my life since sec sch and still..hey,  I finally know who I am, I know what I wanna do. although I know I do have friends, close ones but no one in particular to miss for, change for, worry for or to look forward for. like when i see how wee actually cares for daniel, i just really feel like... erm, like what am i here for, im not anyones special person, nor is anyone special to me. geeeeeee. i should stop. i'm back to square one again. haha. 

ok, feeling lazier than ever, i still decided to once again update. i see why more and more people stopped updating. actually I will really stop one day if I have a person to go to and just say anything I want, really, more than what i will express here but... ya. not easy to come by such person. erm, know what? maybe its just me cause i just keep everything inside. breggghhhh. 

anyway, i missed class AGAIN. i cant believe it. set two alarm and still. I woke up,745, told myself that ok, 5mins more on the sofa, woke up again, hey, this is weird, why isit still 745. hey wait a minute, dont tell me, this time, i really opened my eyes, 12 bloody pm. so I dreamt of myself waking up, going to the sofa, sleep and then wake up again. how fked up is that. So did my alarm really woke me up, did i really saw 745 or was i sleeping all the while.

class was at 9am anyway. =..=''

we live alone and then we die alone...

and apparently we stay alone.

the movie, ghost town

school is terrifyingly exhausting. 9AM !!!! 9 BLOODY AM!!! everyday. without fail, in a class that i CANNOT skip. its called leadership. can leaders be late, no. can leaders sleep in class, no. can leaders afford a late submission, no. can the leader's leader be a nice person who understands why a person can't wake up in time for a 9AM CLASS? definitely not. 

its neither a bad nor a good start for school. 

i really think im losing it. the discipline to work really hard. maybe its because holiday was just too much. the fun.. the freedom to slack whenever and wherever with my mum finally opening up to it. oh! i know... i know~~~~ the reason why this... this force is pulling me down is because simply, i realized how broke i am... oh my... 

new clothes 

new games

weekly movies

maintenance of whatever

foooooood

holyshit, what have i done. i need to save. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR! hahaha, 2008 is probably the fullest year of all, not the year of my dream, never will have one but at least the last few weeks of the year was well spent. Last night, had steamboat with wee, ben, angie and greg. I knew it wouldnt be awkward right from the start to bring angie and greg along. i mean, come on, we are friendly people, i was a lil afraid of weewee though, she can be quite intimidating when shes in a bad mood sometimes and she is, was still in a bad mood. hahaha. but it all went well for steamboat. So was the drinking game at my place, greg and angie went back first obviously. So it was just ben, wee and i. It would have been a perfect day if wee wee had nothing to worry or to be angry about but since when does she not have one. Ben was pretty shocked when wee exploded at the call from someone who i shall not mention. haha. ANYWAYS, ANYHOWS, I think this is the most expensive, most time spent ,most alcoholic, most unhealthy food taken, least hour of sleep taken, best xmas and do what-ever I want holiday and end of year ever.

oh no, i almost forgotten that i had a blog. anyways, xmas was great. Ben and I just realized that we actually spent the whole xmas together. He's really the ultimate, he didnt sleep for 2 days straight man. anyways. on christmas eve we went to sakai sushi to celebrate for wendy's. I thought the food there is always little and yet expensive but that day,I was darn full of it. think i had the bento set or something like tht. then on xmas i introduce ben and greg to weewee, jess and lyson at timbre. and what a small world we're in, lyson and ben are actually secondary school friends. i stare at them in utter amazement. weewee thought both of them actually do belong to the same kinda "genre" of people. okay.. i dont think they are but yea, greg was very very out of place that day since we're all connected to each other...somehow. doesnt matter since he knocked out almost immediately drinking only subtle amount of chivas. talking about chivas, its 180 bucks. oh well, its actually considerably okay for that price, its xmas anyway so might as well enjoy it. we didnt finish it anyway. so the day after xmas, ben and i met up with angie, greg and aaron at claires house. there was alot of people at her house with super awesome food!!! and yes, finally, i had turkey for xmas. hahahhahaa. 

so yea, three days of xmas, lotsa fun, very little sleep and very expensive. best xmas ever, for me at least. too bad we didnt take pictures at all. what a WASTE~~~~ oh wells. 

pictures from last week. had f&c at swensen~ 

one of the first few times with me looking okay in the picture~

oh.. we were questioning why we have fat faces when we take pictures.

and did i say i like my new t-shirt. haha

okay, that is just fking retarded. 

went out with weewee and jess yesterday. they thought that it was pretty boring and hot. haha. well, i thought it was just fine. maybe its because i look forward to the weekend meetings. im always busy with stuff and my only get away is actually going out with them. so even if we were to just sit down somewhere... anywhere... and talk.. or not. its still the time where i can finally just give my brain a break, erm,work still dangles loosely in my mind though but at least im relaxing la. i think im already use to not thinking of what we can do because simply there are nothing much to do to start with. hahha. in fact i like the sit down, eat and talk part the most. so dont think so much. it is the "you want to" meet ups that counts. hahahaha. 

but we should really go to pubs and chill next time, not where i will actually see myself at but at least thats something that we haven't really tried before. not including last night where jess almost went blind. 

dinner last friday-

-at andrea's place-

surprisingly greg can cook good food

so is the other chief, raj.

while waiting for greg and raj to cook, it took them one and half man.

al right. my life aint exactly as empty as what my blog seems to be. Actually its ironic because usually when i have the time to update my blog it means that i'm having a rather unsatisfying time with my life. right now its great, busy like i want it to be and enough fun to keep me away from the "dark" emo side of me. I have better things to do than complaining about my unworthy mentioning of loneliness. well, fk tht for now. I'm just gonna keep my head straight. 

I AM NOT DEAD!!!

http://ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/misc_unsigned_bands/juno_-_anyone_else_but_you_crd.htm

suck on this jess. LOL! just kidding. 

i think we were looking for cheaper hotdogs...LOL

Trolley-mania

look at her fly~~~

lord of the ring, anyone?

jess couldn't jump as high so she stayed in the trolley. =p

I have been slacking so much for the past few days. Guess I just didnt wanna get use to sch. Been late, been absent but i dont really care. gawd. this is not good. 

Anyways, last friday we celebrated weewee's bday at ecp. BBQ!!!! i have to say that it was lotsa fun for me at least. It started off late, us at parkway looking for food and stuff for our bbq. By the time we reached ecp it was already 11pm. Amazing. But you know what we would have never made it there without using the coldstorage trolley. We never intended to use it but apparently we are not the only ones using it. There was trolleys everywhere near ecp's bbq pit. And we sure had lotsa fun with it. Taking pictures with it, hmmmm. okay, dont sound that fun but hell, imagine her bday without that trolley, it would have been a disastrous day like weewee predicted.

for the first time in my life, i actually started the fire, bbqing hotdogs. and hell, it taste pretty good. we set up a tent near the pit and watched movie in it with my mac. ohoh, and I played the guitar for weewee. actually remade juno's "anyone else but you song" into my own. 

oh well, it was really an awesome day, went home darn "early". we even made it to sunrise, something that I havent seen for a long time. yea. well, hope you enjoyed that day, few more hours to her bday~ well, i bet shes real happy today because she gets to see her precious someone. gotta go now. passing her the cd with the song i played for her in it. HAPPY BURTHDAY weeeeeeeweeeeeeeeeeee~

my forgotten blog. i am finally back to feed you bits and pieces of my life. had chalet with ben, andrea, angie, dion, clarissa & aaron last week. It was kinda nice having a short time on your own with your friends. Not that im saying i dont want my mum to be around. Shes afterall the only one who really cares about me. So... we actually spent alot more money than we expected. we had bbq, went jamming and pretty much slacked at the unit talking and watching horror movies. oh, did i mention that the place feels like alot like home, its very hdb looking. very much like my house, except for the aircon. it is old but clean. the only dirty image i can really recall was the... pillows? but it has covers over them so its not that bad. haha. and yes, i slept alot. it wasn't like the chalet i thought it would be, it really really is like me staying at home, without the internet but with the aircon. and i think we wldnt make it if andrea's not arnd, shes like the order of the house. 

i fell in love with the milo powder, haha.

this picture was taken on the last day. we all look terrible.

doesnt this over-cooked hotdog look like something. lol~

soon after ben stopped bbqing.. poor angie had to take over the whole thing

now you see why i pity her cause we're just... sitting there.... 

the place was so small that we had to use space efficiently 

soon, we couldn't bare it anymore, we had to kill one for more space.

and...its weewee's bday soon!!! okay, not really soon. but we're celebrating a week before her actual birthday. she pretty much planned out what she wants for that day. thank you very much, because now jess and i dont have to wreck our brains. we're low in creativity when it comes to birthday. its not like we can ride the singapore flyer anytime soon tgt even if we have the chance to... well.. reason simple, she wants to ride it with her prince charming. ugh. haha. 

anyway, cant wait for the bbq, tent building, tent camping and tent movie-ing on wee's bday. WHAHAHA. im not being sarcastic. i loves tents. its like a stayin out in the wild. isint it cool. why am i explaining =..='' 

ITS JESSICA'S BDAY!!!! WHAHAHAHA. and we bought her agnes b necklace too. not exactly same as mine because its in rose gold. anyhows. theres three colors for the necklace, jess and i already owned two wont it be so cool if we own all. then we can all wear it. silver, gold and whats my color. argh.nvm. jess thinks tht her bday is just like any other day which i tot was great because any other day is better than a bad day. RIGHT!? haha. cheers. at least we always enjoy our any other day. infact i tot jess's bday was kinda special thanks to weewee unfortunate event and some funny jokes that i cant remember. soooo. i really hope that jess aint that disappointed. HAPPY BURTHDAY AGAIN. we're 20 and soon will wee wee's day come. =) 

THE GIFTS

From Weewee & Jess

From Kour Productions & CrewsadeAnimation friends

They actually put the venom statue into this bomb looking box downstairs to scare me...

but sadly, i wasn't wearing my specs and i just walked over it. SORRY GUYS.

Wee & I at Sakura Buffet

Jess & I 
I look terrible in most of the picture, so for once,  decide to turn away.haha
Dont get us or her wrong. She was jus expressing her freedom of single-ness. haha. 

took this picture when we finally blade and cycle our way to changni airport. sadly

andrea couldn't catch up to appear in this picture. 

i miss blading. its hell lotsa fun!

why do i always have to look so obviously tall!?!?

guess what we're taking? 

Raj & Greg's secret love with each other !!!! 

wow... this is the most happening bday ive ever had. haha. went out with wee and jess on fri first. They bought me this really cool  agnes b necklace. okay, i have to admit, i dont know what agnes b is. seriously. but i do know that its branded and not affordable for me at least. haha. we had sakura buffet. i intended to eat all the cakes they have but like what always happens, i got kinda full before i even get to the desserts. I'm so not a buffet person. No wonder their buffet business never dies because there are people like me. and geee, wee and jess just cant stop disgusting me with their seafood. after that we went to jess's place to slack. yes. slack indeed. we went to her house, sit on her sofa, watch the tv and talk crap. we literally sit there like three pigs, not doing anything. Jess started talking on her dogs behalf, I started dubbing for the tv and wee wee simply just laughed it off. Yet, yes, yet, i just love hanging out like this la.  im really happy that we can stay so close and not even try. and we're all singles now. which is pretty cool. wahahahha. im always single =..='' anyway i really love the necklace alot ALOT. i hope i dont lose it.  always want to get accessories but ill end up spending my money on something else =) 

and then today, my school mates really blew me away. they did so bloody much that i seriously dont know how to react. first they came, gave me this wierd looking thing that ended up becoming a lamp. LOL. the truth is i always wanted a lamp. serious. but never get the chance to shop for lamps. duh. there was no blub in it though... =..='' thts why i really dont know what it was at first. then they tricked me down to my house and put a dynamite at the staircase. guess what?! i didnt even see it cause i wasnt wearing my specs. omg. i feel darn sad for them. anyway, it was actually tied with another present in it. and wow, i bought me the original spiderman movie statue for me. and theres only 5000 pieces in the world. haha. we went blading and cycling at ecp afterwards. it was damn shiok to know how to blade again. haha. after that they again, surprise me with a mudpie cake at dinner. holycrap. this is so much bloody hell more than what i asked for. i mean its just my bday. thankyou angie, andrea, raj, dion, greg, ben, jem and people who shared the present. 

this year is definitely the best bday ive ever had. and.. oh yea. i left my bday necklace at wee's place. why didnt i go home? haha, she was scared because.. actually it is quite scary. we left jess house after that right, then we wave for the cab behind the other one because we saw someone going in. the funny thing is the cab infront actually came to us with no one inside. WTF right. maybe we're just too tired. haha. she was freaked out, i swear. it was fun acc her anyway, talked abt things. always fun talking to wee wee la. and yea, jess, we should really get boardgames soon. haha. 

i dont know how to end this entry seriously, you people really did too many things that i feel that it is endless saying how appreciated i am. argh. i think im quite lucky to have both sch friends and two of my best friends that ive knew for so long that close to me. fuck, this is getting gay. but yea. very very happy. =D and i really seriously wanna wear the necklace that wee and jess gave me. damn, maybe i should go by wee place to get it soon. hahah. and set up the lamp and the spiderman statue in my room. hahaha. OKAY. shit. i better end this entry. OH, the only one thing im not happy about, i look horrible in all the pictures on my bday. argh, fuck that. lol. 

will load pictures when i get them.  =)

my holiday is so not a holiday. Im gg to sch almost everyday. I've been so busy doing my cdi projects that i have lost track of time. cant you believe it.. i dont even know that my bdays coming. Had my friend telling me that it's this week. geeee. i dont expect much to happen on my bday. but i am glad that they remembered my bday. i always thought nobody wld bother. maybe its because i had very little memory of my bdays. except for the hugo boss perfume that never seem to finish and... nothing much already.. oh well. at least ppl remembers it now. =) 

wow, today i had so many people in my house. its crazy. let me count, dion, raj, greg, ben,  angie, clarrissa, aaron, wendy. yea. eight people. holyshit. amazingly it was not really hot. we had a massive ordering of mac.d which cost like alot. at first i thought it would be a bad idea to have too many people over but it was kinda fun. haha. ps3 totally took our attentions away, not the girls ofcourse. but they dont mind watching, i guess, which is cool. haha. think i should get another controller and more multiplayer games. haha. so everyone dont have to snatch the controller. 

just came back from town. was hanging out with wee and jess. watched this super gross movie called midnight meat train. the story is stupid. very dumb. anyways, we were thinking of not going out anymore. not that we're not gonna meet anymore just that we think that hanging out at someones house is alot better. jess just cant stop emphasizing about how hot my room is and that i should get aircon. damn it. you think i dont?  anyway i shall post the pics that we took weeks ago. couldnt upload them previously so... 

finally completed this with a matte painting at the back of this girl. 

feel that this is the only piece that ive really finished. feels good. =)

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