with it flash before my eyes

i still stood where my feet lies

never have i been so lifted

and at the same time so lost

my bottle is half filled for...

you are my runaway answer.

life is beautiful if you believe in god.

I am tired of internship. really really bored with it. i find no purpose to wake up early just to end up trying really hard to find something to do like i'm desperate for it. things that... well, has really nothing much to do with my course. for instance. making coffee. which i do lesser now but nonetheless i feel like theres so much more that i can be. but yest. b kinda enlightened me with words that ive once told her "internship is about shit jobs and you just have digest it and get it over with". yea. I hate it when I predict the right things.

i have never been happier

never been feel life's meaning right until now... =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKMs0Ubam_w

"...the last time god lost faith in us, he sent a flood. This time, he send angels..."

she "prayed" to the cake for at least 2mins

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!

it is pretty funny how i think this is the first time in close to 21 years of my life that i am celebrating my mum's bday. i decided to make spaghetti for my mum along with mushroom soup. Something simple. B bought flowers for my mum. She plucked out all the thorns on the roses before giving it to her. so SWEET. never fail to make me =). she was really encouraging, making sure this day will be special for her. and it was. we also took pictures with B's polaroid camera.

it was simple

it was just the three of us

it was nothing fanciful

it didn't cost alot

but it was the best...

a day my mum have always dreamed of.

and a scene that ive always imagined.

a scene of having a dinner with the ones that i loved. like a family.

never seen her smile and laugh like this. so real...

i know you will say that it's all because of me

but still...

thank you b.

i WILL become a director. someday. =)

what comes around, goes around.

so much had changed.. the aspects and perspective of my life...

the way i see things now. 

the things that i desire so much clearer and real unlike before.

never thought i'll be this weak and yet..

this strong...

for everything. i just want to thank you 

and god. =)

JUL'S BDAY !!!!!!!!! 

• simple dinner
• simple reunion 
• simple old times
• simple bla bla bla
• just nice to hang out again 

photos credit to angeline chong =) 

once again i asked the question.

i asked why.

and then i asked why again. 

why bring me such joy

then have me crushed down by it.

I only hope for something simple.

hope for love and to be loved. 

i dont understand...

what are you trying to do dear lord.

so much uncertainty. 

so much doubt. 

yet so much for me not to let go. 

without you, 

I would have not known who I am...

I would have been alone...

I would have given up...

Thank you wee wee. =) 

I am solid sure of what I want to be next time. Very very sure. I love my job. =) 

i'm worried sickkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Jake stepped on a bear trap.

But he's not a bear.

the sweetest thing happening so far...

AND HERE WE GO AGAIN! i'll be back...

FIRST DAY OF SCH'S NOT BAD.

Today is the last day. 

Goodbye to waking up not knowing what to do next

Goodbye to thinking of what show to watch next until the clock ticks 4am

Goodbye to feeling bad not doing anything climatical in this chapter of my life

Goodbye to having any chance of asking anyone out

Goodbye to waking up late in the bright sunny afternoon

Goodbye to feeling happy being alone at home without feeling depress at the same time

Goodbye to having no concern of earning any money

Goodbye to all the lying around at home. *i'm seriously going to miss this one. 

Goodbye to my holiday.

i just want things to be the way it is. 

So so so, a few more days to the start of a new sem. Like I said I really am satisfied with my holiday although I felt really bad for slacking so much BUT... i just heard from yuan that this will officially be the last holiday that we're going to have. NOOOOO. i didn't know. I would have done something if i knew!!! like save up some money and... and i dont know, travel?  thailand, malaysia, where ever... ahhhhh. I feel like this is the last day of me sitting on my couch eating junk food watching neverending shows that ive downloaded. darn .....

Sigh, life goes on... anyway, was suppose to do a short film this holiday but for SOME reasons that I will not go into, it has once again been delayed. fuck. anyhows, my team and I went to req at potong paseh and chinatown. It was pretty fun and i sure miss taking pictures. with my phone. duh, not like i have a dslr, hell, i dont even have a normal digi cam. but hey, my camera on my phone is pretty decent at 5mp. not bad at all ok. haha.

and so i started clicking....

at random things...

this is not at all a planned shot. angie and yuan actually 

set timer on her digi cam and ran to boon and i while

we were observing the place. and TADA! 

yes, i'm also a pervert.

boon blends in with the orange pole.

i know, it's fking gay...

I just love b&w and it hides my ugly red blemishes too. LOL~

we walk the face of earth______