ive just finished watching the dvd i borrowed home yesterday. its a chinese movie called happy birthday. it is really touching. my initial thought of the movie was.. boring. but , yea , iwas wrong, it's a great movie. in some way, it affected me alil. in a wierd way i guess. i dont know how to explain but its like the movie actually made me wanna think of some past relationship which ended up tragically.. but .. I DONT HAVE ANY. except, some one sided love kinda thinggy. well, use to have this habit of looking at some of my junk i kept only to myself in my personal drawer, its been so long since ive opened it, so i just wanna check if insects have move in to it. haha. we sure changed alot by looking at the old photos. sad thing is... those junks related to some ppl or some part of my memory ... just reminds me the useless, stupid jwn i use to be n... how hurt i was. yet i still treasure'em along with some sadness and alil of happiness i use to have. god, this is so fucking gay. sigh. i better nt take a look back anymore, it kills me. have to get some brainwash. im out.

wooaa ow. cny ended so fast, i mean day 1-2. ha, cause .. to me cny's actually this short. although it holds up to 15days. i guess, everyone feels the same too. i really miss the days of how i spend my cny. without fail, ill always visit he pan, ''near that durian''. yea.. but things change, u know. he pan.. to me is no longer as important already. or maybe its nt as fun either. especially when theres nothing to ride on or be with one to enjoy. one by one, all gone. friends n exciting rides for example. well, its ok.

day 1
nothing particular to mention actually. wahhahah. just the normal procedures everyone.. , i mean the chinese, would do. so we'll just skip this. lol

day 2
ok, we visted my mum's eldest sister '' last stop ''. n everyone was there. no, its something bad. damn awkward. geee. everyone had their little group. u know? the aunties, then the uncles , then the big sisters.lets forget abt the big brothers, geee. they look like some kinda robot or something, just sit there and day dream. therefore this leads to the conclusion.. of me joining them, pathetic, BUT at least i fidget a little here and there. they dont even move, not a single muscle!argh, maybe they study too much. infact, i think my task every year on cny , simple, just to collect hong bo's. haha. i dont mind anyway. so after that me n mum went orchard to catch protege. super duper awkward too. its like im the only guy with mother there. lol. but who gives a damn.anyway it ended up well since my mum was so much less naggy and the movie, i'll give it 3 stars. oh yea. i missed out one important part. guess who i saw today? one guy , one girl. guy, victor, girl, joyce. wow. haha. they're the one who spotted me first. one reason i like abt cny, everyone seems to be so nice. god. ok, thats abit it.

n.. tmr ill be back to that same old place again. boring~ right,n i really really wanna watch the epic movie, gee. i think its gonna be hilarious.... and stupid. i love stupid movies. haha. but theres no way im watching it alone. so who shall be my victim.muahahahah . lame.argh but i guess i wont find anyone to watch it with me. since, i have insufficient friends.FACT. NVM. i can always buy the dvd. =..='' ok. 5 mins more to bed. have to clean my mouth. so..next time.

i got my results already. its ... far from what i expected it to be. well, i must say that there may be a guardian angel , a lazy one, who finally did her job. thank you. but.. i dont know why, something else i really want, still... sigh, maybe its because that particular day is arriving that made me feel this way. boy, that day... is gg to be a tough one.. what really made me upset or rather disappointed was actually because... it was suppose to be a turn around for me but it ended up to be nothing... at all. i dont blame u but myself, for thinking too much.

you shld have just said no..... and walk away.
leaving me behind like u were never there.
no..
i shldnt have even ask.
im dumb , im crap.
miracle's just a word
for losers like me.

my dearest blog.. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY LIFE. its a brand new year, but nth seems to be moving to the right track. oh c'mon. havent u torture me enuffff, oh mighty gooddd? its gonna be like this again for the year. n I'LL DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im just kidding... I'LL SUFFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! most likely to the state of craziness. arghhhhhhhhh. help me , somebody ~~~~~ im just overly exaggerating here. i dont even know if that sounds right. fuck. who cares. no fucking soul is gonna mark this piece of shit anyway. OKAY. life goes on.

its still the same, work work work . it kills..alil. the good thing is, i get to see movies for free... .....
... FUCK, didnt i noted that on my previous entries. skip that. ok... yesh~ my results are comming. and my sixth sense tells me that IM GG TO FUCKING PASSSSSSS. it better. and then ill go to any polytechnic and start a BRAND NEW LIFE THERE. wow. im seeing it already. IN MY SQUISHY SLIMY BRAIN , ofcourse. its still an image i want to be in. fuck fuck fuck fuck. geee. oh gosh , just look at how many FUCKs i have used on this entry, today must be a FUCKED UP DAY. no its nt that bad actually. ARGH. mad man typing. me. and he's gonna sleep soon. THIS IS SO FUCKING LAME. WORST BLOG ON THE NET. GO AWAY. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.