I am overwhelmingly happy that she talked about connecting back with God again somehow. Just gives me a peace of us going through all the impossibles and the road ahead of us together. So many many things that can ruin a relationship. Money, dreams, discontentment, jealousy, satisfaction and what so ever. But really, before we got together, I always pray to God, about her, about us, most of the time. Its really bad. Because it's not about us, it's about our relationship with just Him. but God knows when your heart is distracted and filled with so many worries that you want him to clear away. And guess what he did. Back then, muffin was really sick and we're always having issues getting together, so I just kept repeating to him, heal her from all her pain and let us be together and have peace.. I am willingly wait and to give. And frankly speaking, both of us together, haha, we're really not holy enough. But then, we have faith. Thats why the fire is still burning on that melting candle. And with faith, God does not give up on us. Today, her post is like one of my prayers answered. I said to Him '' I don't have the power to bring her back to you cause i'm not as strong yet but you have the power and I know you will. Please guide me and her and let our love be part of your blessing and let it last as long as we live. geee. i sound so epic and lil mushy gross again. sigh but yea. when i pray, i'm pretty epic. But I mean every word. =)

So yea, i'm still getting on my feet, walking with Him, alongside with you. please dont give up on me when you fall. Because every time you fall, I look up and I pray. And then I give all I have just to reach out for you. So be patient with me kay. I'm glad his watching over us. Because today I feel the peace. =) Be patient with me.

Shit... this is a really long entry. Better go bathe, call you back and get back to work. =P Love you.

its not expensive.

it only has 2mp camera.

it is not better than my old phone

BUT

it is alot faster

it has a cooler interface than my old phone

it has a better music player

it is super light

it is damn friendly-user

and above all else

my mum bought it =)

yet, of all the downsides i think of myself, i felt the strength and the confidence God gave me today. i feel like i will make my mum happy and proud in the near future. and the next time we visit our relatives, it will be different, she will look better, stronger, happier and be proud of her hard work she has put in to make this family work, to support me and mould me into someone she will want to see in. this for sure, will not have happened if i did not go to church and learn of the word of god. the change came from there. i use to be a free thinker. talking about logics and how much i think sometimes god is just a wild imagination. but now i think otherwise. i feel the presence of him. moulding me. changing me. yes, i have changed. but it is a good change.

went to church several times and this is the third time God has impacted me with his words, through bible study or today's sermon or even just probably me thinking about how great he is gave me understanding and strength i've never had. feels like another break through for me. haha. well, i myself cant believe i have typed all this. but truly, things i dont understand i am finally understanding. So I just want to thank you lord for all. you have touched me. =)