just got my ps3. and its pretty much the same. im happy abt it. yet not really excited. its kinda ironic. cause.. when i first got my psone, i was darn into it. then come ps2, woah. it was all but enjoyment. but for ps3 its just a lil flat. for all of these that made it happened, that ive realised now, isint actually the next gen consoles.. but that somebody, anybody, around, whether if the persons just looking at u or playing with u, it just feels good.. now thts diff.. william actually came back three days ago, the timming was good because i just got my ps3, although its just one pathetic game cause i didnt have enuff money to buy a few more, it was still great. pure enjoyment, and the funny part is, its a single player game. we just took turns, cursing at each other when the car crashed like a million times. sigh. now he's gone, again? haha. but im not really sad either, i mean, im just trying to make a point here. and it also struck me that hui once said that why do i need a console, i could have a better use of that money, maybe im just so bored and had nothing better else to do but to go right home everyday and lock myself up in the room, pressing the controller like some freak for hours... well, shes right~ most of it. i love consoles, but the reason i buy it is simple, i dont have any more activities to keep myself busy. i just have to find one , myself, alone, and try to always be optimistic by keeping myself with things to do. thats my kinda life, still. ps3 can be fun, but it cant talk to me, make me feel better when im sad or laugh at my jokes.. im just upset.. of the limitations of connections i have. in the end, it always hit me right back, like a cycle, the feeling of loneliness..

laughters, screams and cheers filled the air
so glad to be one of them
soon it fades
everyone spread to their close ones
each hooked on to one another
i was left behind
im not alone, how can i be?
we just laughed and cheered
but why?
deep down i hear the cries of pain..