it took so long for my aging com to recover that i've realized that nobody cares about it anymore, even me. today i went cycling at ecp with my classmates. it's actually the first time we really hang out tgt and i must say that its actually kinda fun. thing is i'm also kinda upset because i use to hang out with the animals at ecp but now we're just too busy to meet up. dont know why but today at ecp i just have so many things running through my mind. not only the friends i use to be close with but also some other thoughts thats just sad.

now i look at my life and the one i had before. i use to be really sad and pessimistic but im now abit more optimistic. just that..it's like im losing myself. im trying so hard to get myself busy so that i wont think of all the serenity and loneliness. my life is empty. crap.

haha. here i go again. maybe this is just a once in a while kinda feeling. going back and forth over and over again. geee. i think i shld just concentrate on my projects and stop emo-ing.

i gaze at the mesmerizing sunfall
the orange rays pouring through the bits of sparkling dust
its magical, its beautiful
as the sun cuts into the horizon
the dark shadows fill the land
if only that will stay for ever.