alright. haha.. this is one of the few entries where i vent my .. sigh, bad bad mood. this is why i rather have a very busy busy life. Yes. I am left with a day for myself. where i have absolutely nothing to do. well, i can. but i feel lazy. So when i feel this way and that doesnt mean i feel like sleeping. i feel... like i am alone again. i just need someone, not just anyone, someone who wants to accompany me not just because i need one. i dont know what im saying anymore. i just hate this. i hate it when i start typing this here because i have no one to go to, i hate it when i make myself so sad but im not. i am just argh.. fuck it. im feeling better already. it does help.  alright. phuuuuuu.