I'M MISSING ONE LETTER. plese understnd the spelling errors.

it's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dmn bloody long since I lst did this. I'm sorry, just hve something else better to do ll the time. nywys, i'm not relly bck to blogging, just something of joy in my hert tht i wnt to express.

It hs been tiring since my lst project in school n now, not ny better, worse in fct. cuse i'm working. nothing gret bout it. work is work. s for pssion, well. thts wht i'm gonn tlk bout. something is greter thn pssion now. n tht is love. relly. I relized tht nothing bets it. fmily love. buddy love. n love love.

sounds like lot of people but relly theres only three.

fmily love = mum

buddy love = wee

love love = b

you think 7 dys in one week is too lil, wit till you work.

i just wnt to sy, im sorry when I disappoint but nyhows...

here is mother tht i'll lwys respect nd tresure

here is true friend tht is hrd to find nd styed unlike others

here is the love of my life tht i wnt to protect nd pmper, never wnt to lose.

it's ll tht i need.

love you ll.

jake's blog is officially dying. Probably breathing rapidly for its last. I really lost passion in all online chores. Facebook, msn and blogging seem to tire me alot. I probably will reboot the whole thing again if I blog with pictures. Thing is. I got nothing to take with. 2.0mp camera on my phone is not really motivating. I am bored to death. I feel like I've lost all passion for awhile.

It's scary, really. I mean how can I want to do so many things at the same time yet feel like doing nothing at all. I told myself, ok, thats it. I am going to rest after fyp. In my room, on my bed, I sat there watching my tv of the movies I downloaded. I enjoy some. Then I felt wasted after 10mins. I say, why not finish my fyp, I opened my editing software and then I give a long long let out "geeeeeeeeeeeeee..." n I closed it within my next blink.

The only thing that I'll never be sick of is making b happy. But that, I'm not very good at. Yet she can always count on me when she needs me. Ahhhh, my only joy. She doesn't know just a extra laugh triggered by me really, really makes my day. Sometimes I wish the only thing that can make her happy is me. But well, can never rid selfish thoughts from human minds. Just want to say, I'm glad we're going smooth and what is ahead will be better. Because you know I'll work extra harder for you. =)

Okay, this is a rather depressing night. I'll shall go watch another movie before think of jumping off the window. I live on the second floor by the way.

Alright.

Good night n ilu.

jake has very bad flu now

because 10mins ago

he was bathing

half way thru he remembered

he forgotten to bring his phone along

and he thought he heard ringing

so he took his towel

ran out

checked the phone

no calls.

he stoned in disappointment

for another 10.

jake has very bad flu now

and have not touch the

newly bought resident evil 5

because.

because. =(

I MISS MY GIRLFRIEND SO BADLY =(((((

no mood no mood no mood for anything.

not even for movies. game. or even sitting down doing nothing

I MISS YOU BETTY YEO!!!

I feel so terrible to always have muffin asking me to blog. Seems like guys really ain't the blogger types. But at least I have one of my own. haha. My girl always have ways in her words. Like how she confess about her angers and mood swings that have affected not just her but me =( but just a simple entry like that makes all that I dwell upon fade away. This is why I always keep a strong heart when we're faced with problems because at the end it always ends with smiling eyes and a warm hug.

I am overwhelmingly happy that she talked about connecting back with God again somehow. Just gives me a peace of us going through all the impossibles and the road ahead of us together. So many many things that can ruin a relationship. Money, dreams, discontentment, jealousy, satisfaction and what so ever. But really, before we got together, I always pray to God, about her, about us, most of the time. Its really bad. Because it's not about us, it's about our relationship with just Him. but God knows when your heart is distracted and filled with so many worries that you want him to clear away. And guess what he did. Back then, muffin was really sick and we're always having issues getting together, so I just kept repeating to him, heal her from all her pain and let us be together and have peace.. I am willingly wait and to give. And frankly speaking, both of us together, haha, we're really not holy enough. But then, we have faith. Thats why the fire is still burning on that melting candle. And with faith, God does not give up on us. Today, her post is like one of my prayers answered. I said to Him '' I don't have the power to bring her back to you cause i'm not as strong yet but you have the power and I know you will. Please guide me and her and let our love be part of your blessing and let it last as long as we live. geee. i sound so epic and lil mushy gross again. sigh but yea. when i pray, i'm pretty epic. But I mean every word. =)

So yea, i'm still getting on my feet, walking with Him, alongside with you. please dont give up on me when you fall. Because every time you fall, I look up and I pray. And then I give all I have just to reach out for you. So be patient with me kay. I'm glad his watching over us. Because today I feel the peace. =) Be patient with me.

Shit... this is a really long entry. Better go bathe, call you back and get back to work. =P Love you.

Hoho! [one of b's favorite word when she's amazed]. hahahha. yes, finally had a lil break to blog a lil. been really really packed and busy lately. my poor lil girls sick, must be all the over works with me. never feel bad of me taking care of you alright? i want to be there, every sec, every day for you if i can, even if you're not sick. whenever you miss me. i want to be there. haha. n i really cant do without a hug from you everyday betty yeo. love you so much!

for my only buddy. i'm sorry ive been such an asshole. things might have changed, but i'm not someone who will let the old good days just pass like that. i miss the chillings in the old days and awesome long dinners =)