I just realized how scarily long my neck is.... 

and tall i am. LOL

He pan... with no rides but a big dumb statue.

and a stupid huge durian

so all we could do is take loads of pictures. hahaha.

and more pictures...

and some more pictures

we actually climbed all the way up so we could see the scenery. quite nice actually.

You can already tell who are the guys and the girls in this picture without looking at the face.

So this CNY is probably the worst. On the first day of CNY, I stayed at home the whole bloody day and i watched like 7-8 movies. See, i cant even recall. I didn't visit anyone cause my mum wanted to work, can't blame her. At least on the second day i went out with wee, angie and ben. Hoping to seat the rides, hepan usually have. BUT, yup, nothing more than a few dumb statues and colorful lights. Well, it was actually still pretty fun. All the clicking and flashing. Although I didnt step out of the house, I still manage to get alil bit of money from my parents and some random people. but from the looks of it. 2009 really is a bad year. at least to start with.

now and then I will think about things that will drag me down like a swallowing quick sand. sometimes i dont even understand why I want to make myself sad. do people want to feel sad? well, at least i do and it sux. geee. but trust me, i use to be alot worse. no, i dont do stupid things that involves blood. 

I know its damn retarded to post really pessimistic sad horrible self insulting entries. what I am sad is if i were to disappear one day, will things be different for anyone? will people even care? Oh wells, i dont really care anymore and I got alot of work to do. so... i shall look forward to CNY. 

on fri, wee, jess, ben, ls and i went to hajilane for food. we didnt know what to do after that until ls suggested bowling. which we did at ecp. and i got the highest score, yay. haha.. so after that we went up and played arcade for awhile and then card games at my place. i got the make-a-rule card and i decided that in the game, forfeit applies for anyone who laughs with any kinda sound, so ure allowed to laugh but you cant make a sound in another words. pretty funny. weewee just... couldnt hold it at first. ben thought that i made the game emo. oh wells. it was pretty fun and all. now, we're just have to worry abt what we can do next week. so little things to do sometimes. 

sometimes i question myself, am i born to feel pessimistic all the time. this is so far the happiest time of my life since sec sch and still..hey,  I finally know who I am, I know what I wanna do. although I know I do have friends, close ones but no one in particular to miss for, change for, worry for or to look forward for. like when i see how wee actually cares for daniel, i just really feel like... erm, like what am i here for, im not anyones special person, nor is anyone special to me. geeeeeee. i should stop. i'm back to square one again. haha. 

ok, feeling lazier than ever, i still decided to once again update. i see why more and more people stopped updating. actually I will really stop one day if I have a person to go to and just say anything I want, really, more than what i will express here but... ya. not easy to come by such person. erm, know what? maybe its just me cause i just keep everything inside. breggghhhh. 

anyway, i missed class AGAIN. i cant believe it. set two alarm and still. I woke up,745, told myself that ok, 5mins more on the sofa, woke up again, hey, this is weird, why isit still 745. hey wait a minute, dont tell me, this time, i really opened my eyes, 12 bloody pm. so I dreamt of myself waking up, going to the sofa, sleep and then wake up again. how fked up is that. So did my alarm really woke me up, did i really saw 745 or was i sleeping all the while.

class was at 9am anyway. =..=''

we live alone and then we die alone...

and apparently we stay alone.

the movie, ghost town

school is terrifyingly exhausting. 9AM !!!! 9 BLOODY AM!!! everyday. without fail, in a class that i CANNOT skip. its called leadership. can leaders be late, no. can leaders sleep in class, no. can leaders afford a late submission, no. can the leader's leader be a nice person who understands why a person can't wake up in time for a 9AM CLASS? definitely not. 

its neither a bad nor a good start for school. 

i really think im losing it. the discipline to work really hard. maybe its because holiday was just too much. the fun.. the freedom to slack whenever and wherever with my mum finally opening up to it. oh! i know... i know~~~~ the reason why this... this force is pulling me down is because simply, i realized how broke i am... oh my... 

new clothes 

new games

weekly movies

maintenance of whatever

foooooood

holyshit, what have i done. i need to save. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR! hahaha, 2008 is probably the fullest year of all, not the year of my dream, never will have one but at least the last few weeks of the year was well spent. Last night, had steamboat with wee, ben, angie and greg. I knew it wouldnt be awkward right from the start to bring angie and greg along. i mean, come on, we are friendly people, i was a lil afraid of weewee though, she can be quite intimidating when shes in a bad mood sometimes and she is, was still in a bad mood. hahaha. but it all went well for steamboat. So was the drinking game at my place, greg and angie went back first obviously. So it was just ben, wee and i. It would have been a perfect day if wee wee had nothing to worry or to be angry about but since when does she not have one. Ben was pretty shocked when wee exploded at the call from someone who i shall not mention. haha. ANYWAYS, ANYHOWS, I think this is the most expensive, most time spent ,most alcoholic, most unhealthy food taken, least hour of sleep taken, best xmas and do what-ever I want holiday and end of year ever.