school is terrifyingly exhausting. 9AM !!!! 9 BLOODY AM!!! everyday. without fail, in a class that i CANNOT skip. its called leadership. can leaders be late, no. can leaders sleep in class, no. can leaders afford a late submission, no. can the leader's leader be a nice person who understands why a person can't wake up in time for a 9AM CLASS? definitely not. 

its neither a bad nor a good start for school. 

i really think im losing it. the discipline to work really hard. maybe its because holiday was just too much. the fun.. the freedom to slack whenever and wherever with my mum finally opening up to it. oh! i know... i know~~~~ the reason why this... this force is pulling me down is because simply, i realized how broke i am... oh my... 

new clothes 

new games

weekly movies

maintenance of whatever

foooooood

holyshit, what have i done. i need to save.