AND HERE WE GO AGAIN! i'll be back...

FIRST DAY OF SCH'S NOT BAD.

Today is the last day. 

Goodbye to waking up not knowing what to do next

Goodbye to thinking of what show to watch next until the clock ticks 4am

Goodbye to feeling bad not doing anything climatical in this chapter of my life

Goodbye to having any chance of asking anyone out

Goodbye to waking up late in the bright sunny afternoon

Goodbye to feeling happy being alone at home without feeling depress at the same time

Goodbye to having no concern of earning any money

Goodbye to all the lying around at home. *i'm seriously going to miss this one. 

Goodbye to my holiday.

i just want things to be the way it is. 

So so so, a few more days to the start of a new sem. Like I said I really am satisfied with my holiday although I felt really bad for slacking so much BUT... i just heard from yuan that this will officially be the last holiday that we're going to have. NOOOOO. i didn't know. I would have done something if i knew!!! like save up some money and... and i dont know, travel?  thailand, malaysia, where ever... ahhhhh. I feel like this is the last day of me sitting on my couch eating junk food watching neverending shows that ive downloaded. darn .....

Sigh, life goes on... anyway, was suppose to do a short film this holiday but for SOME reasons that I will not go into, it has once again been delayed. fuck. anyhows, my team and I went to req at potong paseh and chinatown. It was pretty fun and i sure miss taking pictures. with my phone. duh, not like i have a dslr, hell, i dont even have a normal digi cam. but hey, my camera on my phone is pretty decent at 5mp. not bad at all ok. haha.

and so i started clicking....

at random things...

this is not at all a planned shot. angie and yuan actually 

set timer on her digi cam and ran to boon and i while

we were observing the place. and TADA! 

yes, i'm also a pervert.

boon blends in with the orange pole.

i know, it's fking gay...

I just love b&w and it hides my ugly red blemishes too. LOL~

we walk the face of earth______

after much complain from weewee. I decided to once again change the template of my blog. 

sch is going to start again and for once, i am going to say that I had enough of it. Holiday kinda screws up my body clock. Very very unhealthy, yes. I have just finished watching terminator: sarah conner chronicles season 2 and hell, it was great. The season finale was such a cliffhanger. Sadly, it is most likely going to be the last of it because of the low view rates. It is very irresponsible of fox to just let a great show go like this, they didnt even end it properly! agh~ I am going to miss Cameron, the hot terminator in the show. LOL.  

I played basketball with ben and christian last night. It was fun although I sucked at playing it now. It was funny seeing familiar faces. I remember the days when basketball was everything, spending most of my time hanging out at the court. How some things change and some just stay the same. Frankly speaking, I am a person who yearns for changes. It's so weird looking back, realizing that part of you or your life hasn't change abit. Sigh, realization can be very depressing sometimes. But change dont just come and I know that. I am just... a coward of my own cruel fate. Does that even make any fking sense? haha. 

IN LOVE WITH SOME[THING]

HER NAME IS CAMERON AND SHE IS A TERMINATOR!!! 

I dont know to be happy or to be sad. Yup, I just got my results back. Lets talk about the good stuff first, I got three distinction and a B+ for subjects that are related to my course. They are motion graphic, video production, Project 2 and Screenplay. Right, and i'm really happy about it, seriously. Here comes the fked up part, I got C & D+ for the rest. WHAAHHAA. They the subject that are not related to my course at all, such as leadership and communication design? I really dont know how ppl can do well for every single subjects. that is just.... impossible for me. hahaha.

But frankly speaking. IM STILL HAPPY! hahahha, cause I got 3 distinct in a row. GPA still sucks though, its forever, 2.9. reaching out to the stars for a 3. You know how I always say GPA is stupid and portfolio is the ace. I kinda see things differently now cause I realize that I can never EVER study in overseas. It's just too... expensive. So i need my GPA afterall... to get in a local uni. fuck. =(

*unless i make it to SIFF(singapore film festival). things then will be diff.
DREAMS... ahhhh... DREAMS...

I guess everyone thinks that Ive already abandoned my blog. hahahhaa. or maybe no one can really figure out how my blog works. dummies =x nevermind. 

I have mixed feelings these days. must be the holiday mood. fuck. I want to do alot of things. I want to become a better film-maker, make as many god damn short films as possible yet, and frankly, i feel very lazy. very very lazy. and the whether today is so.... great. 

The rain has never been so perfect. Well, i'm exhilarating. Okay, just want to make sure i write something on a daily basis now. hahaha. =D

it's amazing how I can't sleep when I have the chance to. Yes, i was busy. School. what else? Three weeks holiday now, with ample time for me to exploit. Nothing more than sitting infront of the flashing box with a jar of chocolate. 

Previously on "Jake's life". He had already done two short films in school and is actually satisfied with his works, nonetheless thought it was still not good enough. There is always room for improvement, Jake thought. Planning, filming and editing has relentlessly taken over his days and nights... until now, the three weeks of holiday have finally come to him. He did not wish for it nor did he reject the idea of it. It was all good, feeding himself spoons of chocolate and wasting himself in front of the flashing box until the fifth day when he realized he could not longer fall asleep like the usual. It bothered him because he came back from a late night movie with friends then had one over to waste the rest of the night on a RPG game of exploding bodies of blood. Finally the day should be called off when his friend leaves for the first bus but... this is where it happened.

He could not sleep.

Haunting thoughts once again come back for him. He thinks of loneliness, the things he wished he could have and the- FUCK NO! He stops thinking and stopped forcing himself to sleep with those horrible thoughts. On the lights, took another bathe, clear his head, switched on his beloved MAC and decided to do something else, anything else but think of those horrid questions slithering in his brain. This is when he finally decided that this god damn blog needs a new face. =)