recently, i found out that i have changed.. not much but at least.. in a good way. im not that pessimistic anymore, as time passes, i found out that this is not what i want my life to be. struggling meaninglessly in the dark aint helping. i gotta get out of it and live with it. so what if my life's a bitch, theres ppl who's having life that is so bad, they'd rather end it. so mine is'int that bad, just that i got more 'downs' than 'ups' . now, i try to talk to ppl when im working and not play dead at some corner like the past. i'll also not try to think of something sad when im alone. this is something i shld be happy abt.. or maybe the only one.
i dont know why, but i feel like learning something that i'm not capable of suddenly. like playing a guitar.. yea.. thats right, playing a guitar. yesterday , i told ahmad if his willing to teach me and he dont mind at all. what a good boy, i appreciate it. thanks. think ill just get a guitar on my bday. but ofcourse a affordable one. well, i might change my mind in the end. lol. for now , i have to concentrate on my O's, erm.. i'll try to. then FINISH IT ! and enjoy my next holiday. lol. wth am i talking abt , im having it all the the time. just that its superbly boring. geee. cant wait to hop into a new sch with new friends, new enviroment, new issues i'll have to cope with. yay! ..... but i still dont know which one i shld go. maybe nafa, maybe lasalle, maybe poly if i do well in O's which is kinda impossible or even worst, maybe ite. geeee. this is mind blowin' but i dont mind ite already. i mean.. a dip and a cert makes no difference, besides, i still can tranfer from ite nitec to poly. just that i'll waste another year. argh... just so excited for whats coming. it may be bad or good, but at least i can escape from serenity and boredom. okok , i type too much already. thats all for today. im out.
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