yea. my newly created bloggy. shweet har ?.. dont think so. here is where i truly express my feelings and thoughts, bla bla bla. guess everyone knows that. pathetic.

man.. my best friend, side kick , mate .. brother..asshole, went back to shanghai not long ago. Leaving me here in this small lil pathetic island all alone. what a jackass. nvm, he got to do what he need to. well,just hope he wont get attracted by those black gay men in america.

so.. yesterday was gx's birthday. we actually had quite alot of fun, or maybe its just because i kept making fun of myself.. im such a fool. erm.. so it started out like this, we first met at east coast for no reason at all then walked to pw. had steamboat and a few games of pool there. we went back at abt 130am i think. oh yea, xw is such a pussy, he actually want to cheat $2 more from me. you see, i owed him juleen's bday share $20, a movie ticket $8 and another $4 for the pool game. add them up together and you'll get? $32 ? smart. buta, he said that i owed him $34. argh~ now im the pussy here. its just $2 for goodness sake. anyway, ill return him as soon as i get my pay.

alright.now that williams gone and left with me is only a few dollars, life's really gg to be a byetch. sign. i think im gg to have depression soon. im always talking to myself lately because i got no one to talk to? and when i meet up with friends, i become so darn talkative and fake. fake as in im actually not that happy. hahaha. im pathetic. trying to tell everyone here that im actually unhappy but trying to be happy in front of them all the f'ing time. so damn hypocritical. dont even know if i use that word correctly, im so dumb. but for those who are reading, u know what i mean. lame-o. think our next outing will not come any sooner and that totally sux. i really dont want to talk to myself everyday like a mad dog. arghhh. this serenity and boredom is so gonna kill me anytime. geee. what a long first entry i typed here. better stop here for now. im out.