thanks to hui, heres the new entry. hahahaha. what will this blog become without monkey~
soooooooo. what shld i start with? okok. last thursday.. i think? me, weewee, donkey n blacky went to ecp. we got ourselves something to eat, played at the arcade too, before hitting on the road on bikes. oh ya, tht burgerking area was super quiet, geee. not a single soul there. lol. so we cycled to bedok jetty as usual, stopped there to take some air. haha. this is where the fun part was. wahhaha. we played random games, one of it was so stupid we couldnt help it but laugh non stop. just imagine me trying to act like pikachu. haha. geee. alright. then we continued. nth much happened n we eventually have to turn back at some point so we could return the bikes on time. haha, all i know is jul and jess were always behind me and monkey , waaayyyyyy back, all the time. LOL. oh ya.poor donkey got a cut near her ankle. fortunately ,its nt tht serious. i pretty much enjoyed the day with the animals at ecp. eh? oh,im nt done yet, but its nt tht impt too, they came to my hs after cycling, watched this RIDICULARS movie , it really sux, so half way thru we changed it to another zombie flick. haha. alright. thts all.

next week, my sch finally starts. really excited abt it yet! friends... i need some close ones soon, if nt hw am i gonna survive for the next 3years. haha. n ya, watching spiderman3 , woooooooow, with kelly yong ping ming, use to be a very close friend of mine during the sec sch days. glad we could meet up again. how can we nt watch the 3rd one tgt ? come to think abt it, we actually saw the first two tgt, i think. so this must be like a trilogy. hahaha. n we might just get ps3 tgt. whahahah, all the 3's. okok. YES. i have to go, lotsa dvds to finish. till next time. =D

ARGH.muahhaha. wee wee u ass. ok. lets talk abt the big big event i had with monkey and blacky, well, actually its just a simple but great outing. haha. it was really fun and stupid. lol. we just kept eating non stop. lol. danger!!! HUIHUI!!!! waahahha. er. i just love chatting with them, so lame. now i just gonna repeat what hui's blog already has. FIRST. we met at bugis. then we ate at v8. nice food there ~~~~~ hahhahha. and then juleen came. so we just chat for awhile there and then left n went to b.street. so damn ... crowded. whaahah. in the end hui bought a ''princess'' necklace , LOL. haha, and next to the icon. whahaha. so funny la. one floor less then one minute finish liao. so lame. AND THEN we stop at the strudel cake shop. haha. hui got the strawberry and me the apple one. juleen, just dont wanna eat anything ! wah. power. haha. they we keep making fun of the mona lisa pic behind. =x next stop : MY HOUSE. hahaha. wanted to watch a movie one. BUT juleen. haha. u owe me one. always like tht de. come my hs chat chat go home. but nvm, might be meeting them this thursday again. ahah. anyway, because of this entry, IM ACTUALLY 30 MINS LATE FOR WORK. how touching right weee weeeeeeeeee. till next time. BYEEEEEEE. ZOOOOooooOOOoOOM~

haha. im back. the camp is soooooooooo stupid .. but. fun. super tiring too. they really treat us like we're all superman. haha. 5hrs of sleep leh? piang. okok. im have lotsa to do. so ill jus go right to the point.

DAY ONE
erm. memorised most of the cheers. got to know tht design sch's the coolest. erm. at least the most hyper ones. some friendly ppl, some not so. er... FOOD'S BLOODY CHEAP n it doesnt lose out to the ones outside.

DAY TWO
best of all. they changed the whole sch into a murder scene. its like a game where we have to write the story with all the clues arnd. example, fake dead bodies, fake ghost , notes and many more stupid clues all over the sch. its kinda cool though. got closer to some of them, but rather stick with the girls , er.. dont anyhow think ar, but u know, ive been like this since sec 5, guys there are so, not my kinda friend, like gx or ppl lame enuff to hang out with. but , sigh, tht doesnt mean tht they treat me as a closer friend. ARGH. so sad. anyhow, i manage to get thru the 2nd day. tough.

DAY THREE
we were the best at cheers already. i mean it. among all of the schs. WE ROCK ! YOU PEBBLE! LOL... one of our cheers. aint tht cute. still got lotsa more la. hahahahah. so inevitably.. we won the trophy of the most active sch without fail, straight down for 7 years already. we kept the legendary hyper thing gg on. so proud of ourselves. is like even when they play the music, we were the only sch dancing. okok. i think.. thts abt it.

SUMMARY OF THE WHOLE CAMP
in my group '' THE PACIFER'' lol~
girls are friendly , group leaders are funny n cool.
boys...no comment. not sure. lol. but still upset cause
NO REAL FRIEND YET. FULLL STOP.

n wee wee did something tht made me really proud. she waited 3hrs20mins for.... NOTHING. thts cool,girl~ chill =D

THE END.
comming up on the next ''exciting issue''
'' THE BLACK AND SHINY BIG THING : PS3 '' yaya, u're right weex2, i cant HELP IT.

ok. sorry for the long delay ppl. was , is, very busy. but i wont just abandon my blog because of tht. so.. here i am. fk. thts nerd enough. ill start with er... sr's bday. but before tht i actually went to a pub or clubbing place called double o for the first time, had a couple of shots , thanks to sr ofcourse =..='' i got alil bit shaky but! still kinda conscious. haha. strong eh? but i keep asking them the same Q over n over again so actually i was not really awake afterall. so the next day which was sr's actual bday. we got together at ecp around the evening. haha. to be honest, the whole damn thing is like .. er. a incompleted puzzle , pieces all over the place. but it got better as we play the games. overall, not really tht bad. but i was expecting more from erm ,anyone. well, im just glad we met up again. just tht will do. so.. for today. bad start. bad day. hot sun. HORRIBLE and STUPID cheers. yesh. tp's orientation. IT SUXXXXXXX. i better go. tmr still gt tht stupid camp. boo hooooooo hooooooooooo. someone, anybody, HELP.

oh my god.... whats wrong with tp... no wonder they say '' what u'll get out of tp the most is ''fun'' ''. just came back from work, then mum passes me a tp envelope.. again? havent i sent all the freaking enrolment shit, so opened it. ''freshmen orientation'' oh, that. ha. mum then told me its nt from the mailbox? then!? they actually deliver it personally at ur doorstep. holyshit. whats tht all abt? so i continued reading it.. n oh my, WHAT IS A 4DAY, 2 NIGHT CAMP? isint it suppose to be just an ordinary orientation? flipping through, it just got worse, ''sentosa'' , ''list of things to prepare'', ''fun in the water''..... ARGH !!! its killing me. ok, it may sound fun to some of ya, but its nt to me. remember? i F@#*&@$^ hate sentosa. its hot, and fun in the water? whats tht? must be tht bitchy beach. i hate it. last time i went there... ohhh god, its just terrible... so much for the things ive plan for next week. WHO EVER CAME UP WITH THE IDEA... it better be fun or at least... not! stupid! . shit. im lucky i havent got myself a ps3 yet. imagine me having tht monster machine in my room for 3 days without touching it. no ~~~~~~~~~~~ way! phuuuu...... cool down. u might.. just meet some cool ppl, or haha. okok, shall nt go into detail. cant believe im already gg to be in a polytechnic already. n 'my can say so closest but not so much already' human/animal friend monkey,LOL, no hard feelings, had broken the spell and made it thru with his bf for a year. way to go. keep the engine rumbling. see, all the good things happening , orientation nt included* , is this the end of the devil's work? STAY TUNE ON ''JIEWEN'S SCREWED UP LIFE''

geee. ive been so busy nowadays that ive already forgotten i had a blog. well, its gonna be lyk this for another month i guess. wait till i get my hands on tht shiny black oh... PS3... holyshit. i cant wait to have one in my room with ma tv. and ofcourse a new begining at tp. well, i got this really bad feeling though, what i care the most is the ppl in my class. pls pls pls, god, make this 3 years intresting for me. ps3's gonna help me with some but gee u cant expect me to stay in the room for long. if nt ill go retard. n yesh, ive planned what i shld do in this 3 important years. why important. 1. its before i go to hell(ns) 2. it somehow decides what im gonna do next time. 3. MAYBE a relationship... well, i didnt really put much hope in tht. ARGH! ok. fine. a relationship is what ive always been looking forward to. haha. desperate. no. lonely. yes. maybe both. fuck it. oops. less 'f's jwn. dont scare the girls off. whaahahha. doesnt make any diff. n ya, i hope monkey's feeling better already, i kinda know how she feels now. CHEER UP. dont give up, u're blessed, i dont know.. god's always at ur side. haha. always has been. so dont worry.ok. thts all for the day.
-wishes will come true. just wait for the genie.

sigh. first all the good things. now the bad. if theres really a god, he sure is punishing me now. it has only been a few days since i sign on a thousand plus hdtv. ofcourse i wont just buy it for fun because i already got one at home. ps3 needs a hdmi output which only hdtvs were capable of. so thats the reason. although i did save a partial part of my money for backup. ive just realised that i shld at least wait until my sch starts. now tht my mum has some bad news after the meeting at her workplace, i really feel bad abt spending the money. i really dont know. its nt like i regretted buying that tv cause its what i really want in my own room, just tht whats happening now made me know tht i shld always wait until im really ready to get what i want. so what i can do now, is to delay the date of getting the ps3. i know.. i shld kill the idea of getting it already, but tht freaking tv tht cost so much will then be useless. guess ill have to work at the same time when im studying to save up more money. phuuuuuuuuu. alright. hope my mum will find a solution to her problem soon.

I WILL BE AN ANIMATOR. wahahaha. moving image at tp. what ive always dream of since young,is to make my own picture move =..='' LOL! tsk tsk tsk. yet , im still worried abt my future with my ability ill soon gain. nvm . ill work hard. n create my own ANIMATION..... okok. i think too much liao.

All thanks to monkey actually. what shld i say? shes the one who told me abt the jae result, the one who check for me on net, the one who saw it first and the one to congratulate me first. hha. thanks bud. well well, i really hope this is what ive always wanted. wow. animation.. really cool thing to learn. haha. okok. think thats abt it. just want to thanks this wei da de wee wee once again. happy ? lol. till nxt time then.

ive just finished watching the dvd i borrowed home yesterday. its a chinese movie called happy birthday. it is really touching. my initial thought of the movie was.. boring. but , yea , iwas wrong, it's a great movie. in some way, it affected me alil. in a wierd way i guess. i dont know how to explain but its like the movie actually made me wanna think of some past relationship which ended up tragically.. but .. I DONT HAVE ANY. except, some one sided love kinda thinggy. well, use to have this habit of looking at some of my junk i kept only to myself in my personal drawer, its been so long since ive opened it, so i just wanna check if insects have move in to it. haha. we sure changed alot by looking at the old photos. sad thing is... those junks related to some ppl or some part of my memory ... just reminds me the useless, stupid jwn i use to be n... how hurt i was. yet i still treasure'em along with some sadness and alil of happiness i use to have. god, this is so fucking gay. sigh. i better nt take a look back anymore, it kills me. have to get some brainwash. im out.

wooaa ow. cny ended so fast, i mean day 1-2. ha, cause .. to me cny's actually this short. although it holds up to 15days. i guess, everyone feels the same too. i really miss the days of how i spend my cny. without fail, ill always visit he pan, ''near that durian''. yea.. but things change, u know. he pan.. to me is no longer as important already. or maybe its nt as fun either. especially when theres nothing to ride on or be with one to enjoy. one by one, all gone. friends n exciting rides for example. well, its ok.

day 1
nothing particular to mention actually. wahhahah. just the normal procedures everyone.. , i mean the chinese, would do. so we'll just skip this. lol

day 2
ok, we visted my mum's eldest sister '' last stop ''. n everyone was there. no, its something bad. damn awkward. geee. everyone had their little group. u know? the aunties, then the uncles , then the big sisters.lets forget abt the big brothers, geee. they look like some kinda robot or something, just sit there and day dream. therefore this leads to the conclusion.. of me joining them, pathetic, BUT at least i fidget a little here and there. they dont even move, not a single muscle!argh, maybe they study too much. infact, i think my task every year on cny , simple, just to collect hong bo's. haha. i dont mind anyway. so after that me n mum went orchard to catch protege. super duper awkward too. its like im the only guy with mother there. lol. but who gives a damn.anyway it ended up well since my mum was so much less naggy and the movie, i'll give it 3 stars. oh yea. i missed out one important part. guess who i saw today? one guy , one girl. guy, victor, girl, joyce. wow. haha. they're the one who spotted me first. one reason i like abt cny, everyone seems to be so nice. god. ok, thats abit it.

n.. tmr ill be back to that same old place again. boring~ right,n i really really wanna watch the epic movie, gee. i think its gonna be hilarious.... and stupid. i love stupid movies. haha. but theres no way im watching it alone. so who shall be my victim.muahahahah . lame.argh but i guess i wont find anyone to watch it with me. since, i have insufficient friends.FACT. NVM. i can always buy the dvd. =..='' ok. 5 mins more to bed. have to clean my mouth. so..next time.

i got my results already. its ... far from what i expected it to be. well, i must say that there may be a guardian angel , a lazy one, who finally did her job. thank you. but.. i dont know why, something else i really want, still... sigh, maybe its because that particular day is arriving that made me feel this way. boy, that day... is gg to be a tough one.. what really made me upset or rather disappointed was actually because... it was suppose to be a turn around for me but it ended up to be nothing... at all. i dont blame u but myself, for thinking too much.

you shld have just said no..... and walk away.
leaving me behind like u were never there.
no..
i shldnt have even ask.
im dumb , im crap.
miracle's just a word
for losers like me.

my dearest blog.. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY LIFE. its a brand new year, but nth seems to be moving to the right track. oh c'mon. havent u torture me enuffff, oh mighty gooddd? its gonna be like this again for the year. n I'LL DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im just kidding... I'LL SUFFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! most likely to the state of craziness. arghhhhhhhhh. help me , somebody ~~~~~ im just overly exaggerating here. i dont even know if that sounds right. fuck. who cares. no fucking soul is gonna mark this piece of shit anyway. OKAY. life goes on.

its still the same, work work work . it kills..alil. the good thing is, i get to see movies for free... .....
... FUCK, didnt i noted that on my previous entries. skip that. ok... yesh~ my results are comming. and my sixth sense tells me that IM GG TO FUCKING PASSSSSSS. it better. and then ill go to any polytechnic and start a BRAND NEW LIFE THERE. wow. im seeing it already. IN MY SQUISHY SLIMY BRAIN , ofcourse. its still an image i want to be in. fuck fuck fuck fuck. geee. oh gosh , just look at how many FUCKs i have used on this entry, today must be a FUCKED UP DAY. no its nt that bad actually. ARGH. mad man typing. me. and he's gonna sleep soon. THIS IS SO FUCKING LAME. WORST BLOG ON THE NET. GO AWAY. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

my dearest blog. ive just found out that your are the only thing i can come to when ever i... feel like im the only soul living on this pathetic planet. im losing to it. i have admit that im trying , always trying, very hard to look on the bright side but its just not working anymore. all the fake laughs and smile, im tired of pretending. isit that im always like this when im at home, i think too much? i dont think so. people working with always have ppl arnd, either when its on their off or after work. they got so many friends, and one thats younger then me have a life that ive wanted it in mine. a human mind complicates things, one moment im writing an entry that im actually over it , the next thing i know it, im into that f'ked up situation again. always like this for me. i feel like a loser whenever ppl at work talk abt their past relationships, present ones, whatever, haha, n what? i have had only one rl, and maybe that doesnt even fucking count. geee. i know, everyone's equal in same way. but maybe god left me out. fuck. i feel terrible. mums right. why am i watching dvds everyday, have i got nth else i to do. like go out? have fun? stop staying at home looking at every electronic screens there is in the house? i wish i could. i wish ... too much. maybe thats why i dont get a single shit i wished for, at all. alright, at least 2/4 of what i kept in me has been released if not ill end up in mental hosp real soon.. thanks to u my only .. whatever, blog.

fk new year's eve. welcome.. whatevers comming. alright, i sure feel alot better now. haha. alright. that previous entry i typed was seriously crappy. i hate being sad i hate being that 'oh, poor guy'. fk that. so what if ny's eve was shit. maybe.. just maybe..sigh, something good's gonna happen to me since ive got hit by all kinds of shit already. hai, i just want to be alil bit happier. its always bad thinking of the worse when you're already an unhappy person. woah. i feel like a matured grown man now. wahahah. lame. at least im nt that pessimistic already.

at first, it was... terrible. this was the first time i felt so alone. i found out that.. keng was right, i have too little friends arnd me , how he know that? just by looking at the contacts i have in my phone.ha.. and right,i depend too much on'em. its nobody's fault. they have their love ones to celebrate with. and ill do the same. i was so desperate, so eager to find someone who will actually hang out with me on new year's eve. there's one.. but after last than an hour i know we shouldnt stick arnd any longer; she was so much more closer with her friend and they'll somehow leave when the movie starts, its better that i walk off until i feel left out.still i thank her for acc me for that lil while. then, i walk arnd alone. sat down somewhere nobody would walk by. after awhile, i tot that it isint that bad actually. things wouldnt have turn out better even if i were to meet up with the rest. cause i was the one who asked'em out who than ended up with nothing we can do; some have to go home early anyway.. i cant believe its now a new year. i really hope.. this will not continue like this, continue like im...so bad like this now. sigh. having off on new years day. not a very good thing after all, guys at mj.ha. ppl there dont even know i have a blog.. im not a poor guy saying to all that even enter to my blog that say's '' hey, im so pathetic and i need someone'' well, yea, i need some but not until u read this. , just trying to let off something here. if not ill burst.

yea, i have friends. but..

gee. how can i be using the com when im 15mins to work. damn. anyway. todays xmas. wow. and im still working. poor poor jiewen. at least ill get to celebrate new year's eve. phew. god's not that bad to me. ha. whoosh~ and one year's gone. brand new one ahead. pls pls pls. a better one next year. i beg of u god. haha. i feel like getting a dvd player for myself. since its xmas. and nobody has one for me. still considering. okok. better log off now. or else my supervisor will nag the hell out of me.

its still raining. i stoned at home the whole damn day. i felt this loneliness but i have friends. why? it just dont make any sense. im gg crazy.. i keep lots to myself. too much of it.

woke up at 1.30pm. and its 7.34 now. its gg so fast that i cant believe it. i dont feel life anymore. yes, i go work, laughs; im just faking it, nobody knows, i go out, just so that i feel that im still breathing and theres still ppl arnd me; i feel my presence but its gone the next day i wake up. am i still myself. am i? its fading away.

i cant wait to go to a new enviroment. meet new ppl. get out of the hell am in now. but i fear the same cycle again.when i see people connected to each other that close.. i cant help it but hate myself, why cant something like this happen to me. am i too impatient , desperate to gain what i dont have. or just to fill in whats empty. crap. im so screwed.

having read the entry above. i think im really crazy. what the f' am i even typing here.

wow.chatting with monkey now. she and her boy have been together for 8mths already. haha.. isint that like .. loooong. but to me... its just like ive been thru only a week or so. ive been thru nothing but empty , bore and stupid life. who can i blame it to. myself ofcourse. geee. typical moodswings again. alright. all i want is .. ahh. forget it. haha.. whats the use of talking trash when i dont have a magical lamp. my life's like the ever rolling toilet paper , all i'll see is just pieces of white paper connected with another. argh. now thats lame. fuck. nvm.

hear new. see new. feel new. nokia n73. ya. i got it. actually. nothing 'new' about it. haha. cause its just like my previous 7610. just that the cam's really superb. for everything else. just the same. its not that bad actually. i wont have to go thru all the ' get use to it ' period. well. i really have nothing much to update again. lol. cause its the same everyday. i work. i watch movies i borrowed home. i sleep. i eat. nothing else. what do u expect? i spend almost all my time in the mph. sigh. life's just... so.. nothing. really.

yesh .im getting the n73 sooooon. real soon. actually. probably next week. lol. finally. i can get rid that old 3310. haha. but.. seriously, its the most durable phone ever. it has been with me for arnd 4years. geee. 3310 never says die. erm. actually i have nothing else to talk about alrdy. haha. well. thats it for today.